I am so thankful that I found this board. You don't know how many times I have said that my soul is chipping away. I was becoming so hard hearted. I couldn't stand him and I couldn't stand me! I felt like I was standing on a train track trying with all my might to stop a speeding train. I couldn't stop the train and the train kept running over me. Finally I had to get off the train track. Thank you for the posts. Believe me, it helps.