Listen to your heart...Yes, at some level you do love him...How much do you love yourself...The Book says we ask ourselves..."Howimportant isit really, in terms of our episritual and emotional sobriety." It all says.."we are not doormats..."
You deserve better...you say spoiled..income..wherei s your faith right now? Do you know your HP will meet all your needs..He may provide a nice chunck of alimony....Do what you need to do for you...We carry the message... not the mess...
Did you do the best you could ..being he only Big Book he might ever read..? Marriage is supposed to be a parttnership...emotional, physical... supposed to support ech othe wile we make changes in ourselves...If that is nt happening...and the Sunlight of the Spirit is being blocked...then I think you already know the answer...
Love...Prayers...Hugs and Peace