Sickofit,
So sorry you are experiencing such pain right now. I know when the truth hits me between the eyes with it hurting so badly, I have to step back and try (that's the hard part) and see the bigger picture. I have a feeling this is your HP doing you a favor, opening up the door for you to have a better relationship, maybe, on down the road of your life.
We all deserve someone who treats us with love and respect and that is exactly what YOU deserve. As painful as it is right now, I think this might be a blessing in disguise.
Hang in there. Your HP has a good plan for you even when you can't see it.
Hugs,
Hangin' In