I am sorry for the loss of your mom. Losing someone we love is never easy but when that person is also so young it is a tragedy. Although you will always carry that wound with you, in time it will be easier to bear. Don't be afraid to reach out for help if you need it. You don't always have to be the strong one, although you probably were forced to be mature beyond your years due to her addiction. Take care of yourself. Hugs, Marle