I know I need to work on myself, but it feels so UNCOMFORTABLE and HARD.
Why do I need CONSTANT reassurance of this love?
1. First, it's hard and uncomfortable because we're not used to being different! We get comfortable in the place we've been in all our lives. But, as you know, the more you continue doing the same thing over and over, and expect different results is, well insanity, and that's what you want to get away from, the insanity. Don't stop working. Where were you before you started working on yourself?
2. A really good dose of self esteem can cure a lot of our problems. Remind yourself of what you are, and how much value you have. Our identities need not be tied to another person. We can hold up all by ourselves.
Im sorry you have to go through this, and I hope you feel better soon.