Sickofit,
I am so sorry, I know just how it feels, my husband did the very same thing. I can't explain it or why....makes no sense to me. My husband was looking at spending years in jail for robbery...all while drug induced. He got off with a 9 month house arrest and not to use illicit drugs, he walked out of the court house and used...had to celebrate! He did the same thing when he got out the door from rehab....I can't even begin to make sense out of it and I gave up trying. The only thing that makes sense to me is this is going to be his way of life, but it didn't have to be mine.
Rose