Oh Diane, I sooooo have you beat, girl.
I joined Alanon in May 2004... that would be nearly three years ago.
I have done a mini-4th on my marriage, and the beginnings of a 4th & 5th at last years' 4th step workshop. You might call that a "mini-4th" on my dad.
Until now? Naaaaddddaaaaa.....
So, my second annual 4th step workshop is in May, again. I plan, again, to do some of the work of trying to REMEMBER what the hell happened in my life.
Most of it is there... I just can't get to it. "Repressive Memory" I've heard it called. I can access stuff - but it is at random, sometimes by surprise and always difficult. Even the good stuff.
But I keep working on this.. because each time I find something. Each time I write down -
Who
What Happened
How it Made Me feel
How I responded
And then TELL someone... a weight is lifted.
My "NOT-an-OA-Meeting!" (smile... group conciousness on the name of the meeting) which is using all the OA materials, is just coming up on the 4th step in our group study.
Another freakin' 4th step.
This may be "the year of the 4th step". And I may just be "ready".
((hugs))