He has calmed down alot. He was reacting to fear. He couldnt take me to court as he has been taking vacation days and he is the only deisel auto tech the dealership has and they had a truck coming in that had to go out that day. They already demoted him for missing work because of the kids and my problems and such. So he has calmed down. I need to get a better plan and stop doing some of the things I used to do as an addict. It was really careless and foolish for me to drive. I will know better the next time. As far as the kids go, he really is a good dad. I do have a year clean, but I will have to get a full time job and a better stand on my own two feet before Id consider trying to take custody. At the moment he can provide 80% better right now. I wont mess with that. Also even if we did split, I would still see them alot as he doesnt ever want to keep them from me. The kids have been the one and most important things we never fight over or about.