Letting Go
I have only just joined the board as of last night and my boyfriend has only been in rehab overnight, but I am having an incredibly difficult time letting go.
I am obsessively worrying about so many different things- if he will get better, if he will still love me, if he has ever been the person I have known him to be...
I switch back and forth between anger at his lying and deceit and than bottomless sadness at the entire situation and my inability to do anything about it. I am not sure why this letting go is so incredibly difficult. Maybe I do not trust myself enough? Any suggestions or kind words would be greatly helpful.
The board thus far has been incredibly amazing. Most of these concepts are still new to me and allowing myself to believe I deserve to have boundaries and to ask for what I need in a relationship are still a bit shaky.