Thank you for your explanation. Sounds like that was how it was... we can't change the past.
But the future is wiiiiiidddddddeeee open.
And today starts in ..... well. I guess right now.
Every step you make that is hard to take, every lesson you learn, these all bring you closer to where you want to be.... a fully-functioning, equal and equally responsible partner and parent.
I'll continue to keep you in my prayers, hon.