Thank you. I am feeling less angry and more sad. I start crying out of the blue[and I am no cryer]. I really miss the man I met, the clean one that would cook dinner for me, would call to see when I was getting home because he missed me. He has been gone for a long time. He had fought addiction for years, was sober for 5 and started the dabbling, as far as I can tell about a year ago. I didn't see it...I really feel that this was his destiny. Thank you for all the support here. I know I get understanding here, and I absolutely understand most of what everyone is experiencing, including trying to work on a relationship because we aren't ready to let go. Bless you all.Marian