I told him I love him and I really want to spend the rest of my life with him. I told him I need him to know that I can't stay with him if he does not stay sober. He said he is sober and he is going to stay sober and he wants to spend his time at home, not with a bunch of addicts and he is not going to F--- up. I told him I was afraid and he said "don't be, I'm fine". Well, I wish I could be ok, but I'm sitting here crying. Like I know what is going to happen. I hope to God he knows what he is doing. I can't continue to stay married to him if he's not going to stay sober. I can't live my life in fear of the man I'm married to. When he's not sober, I'm very afraid of him.