I have always been someone who takes life's punches and gets back up. Well honestly, I am tired!
I think that any one of us could have written that before we got here.
Trying to carry the world on our shoulders is a pretty common trait many of us share....along with a few others. I usually have some control issues in my life, mixed in with some anger stuff and sprinkled with a big handful of perfectionism.... stirred to nearly madness... and there you have me. One Done Alanon.
My life is better today. But what got ME better was attending a face to face group. Alanon is what worked for me, but Naranon and CODA are also very good groups for our issues.
I hope you get the opportunity to try some face to face meetings, to read the sticky posts at the top of the forum, and to read Codependent No More by Melodie Beattie. Together, these make for a pretty good recipe for living a more enjoyable life.
(((Hugs))))
Welcome to SR.