Hi everyone,
My AH and I have seperated a week ago, I know not that long, but something inside of me has changed.....We have broken up and back together, countless times, all because I think I was afraid to be alone, and not being able to make it.. emotionally, finacially, and the what if's....brought me calling him back each time.....well I have finally realized the good old lightbulb moment that things are not going anywhere, but downhilll, his first and only love his crack/cocaine,alcohol,porn and sex shops, he spiraled down fast..and I 'm just not willing to tolerate it anymore, I just want to start feeling good about myself, and not living in the negative world he was creating...Like lovestoomuch, the feelings for him were all but gone, I didn't have that glimmer of hope anymore, I did at one time, but not now...I just remind myself of what real is , and not what I wanted them to be...
I wish you all the courage and strength.....
love...