Thanks for that explanation. We too have names for our alter egos and by using teh sexy ones can guarantee a great night no matter what. Balance, that is the key, you are so right.
I think too, many times I switched into the down person and create drama to feel normal, as a drama triangle, he reacts and we all create this crazy system. Today Im sitting here, with nothing really wrong, yet feeling off kilter , off balance and not finding enough dark chocolate to raise my seratonin levels appropriately. It would be all to easy to say the heck with it and pop a valium, but I will not give in to that voice either.
Balance, I ahve to reach my balance and remember this crazy way I feel today is a lot more about me than another and it too will pass.