Do you ever see the downspirals coming?
I know we are not supposed to watch for it, but sometimes I cant help notice. I focus harder and harder on me, but its the little things that show depression edging in as always just before a bad fall (not just a relapse, but an all out daily alcohol and DOC downspiral)
Im sitting back, waiting prepared not to get on this roller coaster I know all to well. This is where the frustrating powerlessness part comes on at, the part that drives the sane ones crazy.
With my husband when he's great he's great, but there are 2 other personalities as well. There's the semi functioning A that uses every week to two for a night and picks himself up, but then there's the one that starts doing shots, hinding the boos, becoming a daily drunk and starts a using/drinking sprint than can go on forever.
Today Im leaving it in Gods hands, preparing for a disaster as I would in a storm but waiting and hoping for the best, because that is all I can do.