Carine, i feel for you. it's not easy loving an addict, in fact it impacts our lives more than we will admit, until we reach our bottom. then & only then will we decide how much more we can & will take.
remember the 3 c's
we didn't cause it
we can't control it
and we can't cure it.
you mentioned that you refused to give him $$$, Good for you. All you can really do for him is have hope & pray.
know that we are here for you.