Oh Carine...
I am so sorry,
Can I say, you have done and gone to all ends to stand by him...feel no guilt girl. We have no idea just where they are going to end up, clean, high or ....
We fear the....so we live with clean and high trying to avoid....at what ever the cost.
There has to come a time Carine where we all have to face the fact that we can not stop......should it come to that.
Should something happen to my AH, in my heart I know I did what I could and I am content with that. I know that if I went to where his lives today he would be so over joyed, but I know the day after that he would go use to celebrate his joy. I guess what I am saying is there is nothing I can do to alter his thinking. They have the Joy for the Drug! What Joy does that leave us with....not much only worry!
Rose