Your know.... there is a different way of looking at it as well.
In some past relationships there was this excitement.... things were intense, My obsessive thinking, and unfortunally I equated that to love... If the firecrackers where there that set my nerve endings off it must be something huh?
But then again Im co-dependant and therefor my feelings are not always the healthy way of feeling or thinking. Perhaps those toxic feelings are just what you have known and not what love is really all about?