I'm an A but wanted to say that it was so calming after my divorce to move into a small home with only my personal belongings and little else. My kids and I made a few trips to Ikea to pick out new furniture, and we all pitched in with unpacking and decorating the house. Every time we're there together I think about how much of our love for each other is shared there and fills our home, and for the future we'll have together.
Starting over became such a relief after years of alcoholic chaos. I know you're hurting, but I'm glad you're done quacking.