hey all.thanks for posting.I guess whats really bothering me is no afterlife...Who wouldn't want to live on and on and on. At any rate I think my addictive self is using this as cover for a reason to go back to using. My sober self believes that even though part of me is screaming for weed and beer the real truth is that a clean and sober life is going to provide me with a much higher quality of life. Just as no one has a better quality of life with arthritis,the only true way is to abstain. thnks