hi, sweetie...this is the hard part, i'm also a mother, i have a pill addiction, but i can understand exactly what you are going through...take it one day, one hour, one minute at a time if you have to...you can make it!!!!!there are so many mothers on here and we all are making it...if we can do it you can...you've made it through one day...that, believe it or not, is a huge accomplishment...tomorrow is just one more day you have to get through...and so on...go to meetings...seek counselling...get as much help as you can...you can make it...we will be here for you...you are in a special place...