confused about my future
Let me say that Im grateful to have awoke this morning and to be promted to find you all on this site! I have alot of healing and recovery to do! my Husbands long term condition of alcoholism and drug addiction has reflected on me over the years and finally have I relized I myself need to clean up my side of the street.For 11 years of my life I have been trying to fix my husbands life but because I become weak and tierd I have put myself into a postion to be a follower in his path since I cant seem to fix him!! The result just seems worse.Im a flat out angry and Tierd woman that has BEEN SO SELFISH to our three daughters emotional needs.I am addicted to marjuanna and perscription pills to cope with the stress I have as a result of my issues in my marriage.I woke up this morning feeling so feed up with myself as a Mother that I want today to be my first day of sobriety!!!