Right, but see I take pains to differentiate complusion and obsession - as well as the idea it was "taken" from me and I was relieved of same. See, I don't think any God did this. I KNOW AA didn't do it (haven't attended in 10 years).
A compulsion is where you've just
gotta do something; you are compelled to do it. In many ways it is akin to the addictive characteristic.
Of course that existed in me as well, but what kept me a
student of pain and suffering in alcoholism was that I was obsessed with the notion that I must,
certainly, be able to control my intake. LOL
Until that left, or the curve ended, or whatever happened, man I was just doomed.
Yes Paul, I am very comfortable with the likelihood that it's gone now--that I have indeed OUTLIVED a fixed curve.
"Well then, why don't you drink"? some may say if they think I'm claiming impunity from EtOH.
I don't TOUCH the stuff because it's a disease I
don't understand.
_I_ don't know why it let up. You think I'm going back again?
Fuh-getaboutit baby.
Besides, too many bad memories like... ohhhh,
impending death for starters.
