Thank you all for sharing your stories with me. I just got back from an AA meeting. It was so good to let it all out there. I also called my husband and he is coming back to me. He said he loves me and that we'll be in it together. He will stop drinking together with me. I really hope that we can do it this time. I feel terrible, emotionally and physically. I nearly passed out at the meeting and I'm pretty shaky but at least I didn't touch the drink since I passed out from it last night.
I'm waiting for my husband right now, so we can talk. At least there is hope now. I'm scared to see his face because I know I did it to him. I will also go to the women's meeting at noon. I guess that's all I can do for now. I'm glad I decided to go on this healing journey and I am very lucky that my husband has forgiven me and is supporting me. He really must love me a lot to be coming back to this piece of ****-me...
Thanks for listening.