Originally Posted by amber98
It's all smoke and mirrors! The man I fell in love with is just an image of my imagination...he doesn't assist. I have read so many posts on this blog and we all have the same common denominator, and that is we gave our heart, soul and mind to an alcoholic.
I'm seeing that now in my boyfriend. It's like his "good side" peeps out every now and then to give hope that he's still the guy I fell in love with. Then his "bad side" comes out and destroys all hope.
It really sucks.
Hugs, girl ...
By the way -- you're not stupid! Alcoholism makes a mess of millions of people's lives all over the world every day. I swear you're not the first or the last.