I need to be with people. I just need to be with people who don't contribute to my own unhealthy thinking whilst I am still unravelling it . Therein lies my choice.
I had a period of time last year where I isolated. I felt disconnected from everyone and didn't have the words to express how I was feeling. I have lost a good friend because she had expectations of me that I couldn't live up to and she had no concept of what I had been through and the effect it had on my core sense of self. But that's OK. She doesn't need to understand -I do. One day we may connect again. Or we may not. For now, I prefer to seek out those who do understand my experience and its effect.