What I Really Wanted

[liveweyerd]

What I REALLY REALLY wanted for Valentine's Day/weekend was go to the IU theatre and see Lysistrata performed. I went to the art museum yesterday and discovered that THAT PLAY was running this weekend, oh I would love it, I wanted to go so bad, called and Fri nite was sold out, called daughter, coz I hoped WE could go, then ALAS by the time I got home and logged on Sat had sold out too. I am tremendously disappointed. I would have gone by myself rather than miss it!

liveweyerd

[liveweyerd]

Dayna touched me with her card:

Bless you, Mom

Bless your heart for all the ways
you find to be so nice.
Bless yours hands for giving help
Without even thinking twice
Bless your thoughts for knowing
Just the perfect thing to do
You are an angel in disguise
I'm truly blessed by you.


I cried, of course.
Please don't tell her how much I bitch about it, trying to be a good mom/grandma

She gave her daddy a funny card that said some thing about offspring and sprung out at you. It suited him and he cried too, she said. He brought her roses

I didn't want a Valentine's date. I am happy to eat chocolate all last week as celebration.


live

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Hey Live,your sweet! Did ya like the chocolate?I bouht myself a huge candybar last night,but did not eat it! I need to see a doctor, I think I have an ear infecton again.

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About the card, my hubby bought one with springs in it too and the eye balls pop out! Something about I still make his eyes pop out. He even shaved and got a hair cut. I wrote in his card that I felt he did not respect or appreciate all I gave him. I just don't know any more. I gave him a candy chocolate heart too. I feel like I'm being bad and ungreatful,but I also feel he has put so much on my sholders. I just did not want to "give in again" and think everything was my fault. He is acting scard because he knows I'll leave him soon. It's not the money or lack of,it's that he will not grow. I feel like Dajavoo all over again. My ex did the same thing before I left him. He tried to get all spused up and gave me a ring and all. God,if I'm not going crazy! He came in the other night and out of the GD blue, he said Eidith died in her sleep. He said he never saw that epasoid of bunkers place. Ofcourse me getting all up set and having the crazys,thought It's a sign from God to becarful or I might die in my sleep. I told him a few days later actuallyI asked him why on God's earth would you say such a thing and told him not to talk about dying to me when I got the crazys! Anyway, my ex husband did try to intimidate me. He one time had a knife and looked at it and looked at me with an evil look on his face. And he did the same with the gun. GG, I don't want to remember for fear of full blown PTSD. This is the time of year that my son almost died. I did't get them any Valintines this year. I sent them some the year that my boy almost died. My ex told me that he ate his candy,but he really did't It was still there when he almost died when I had to come up. It broke my heart to know my boy was even too sick to eat his candy! GG, I have to get out of this thinking. I don't want to rememer any more!