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04-16-2006, 07:11 PM
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| ~Zen Sistah~  Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Selinsgrove, PA
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|  Hi! I'm new here...
I just found this forum tonight and I am so glad that I did. I definitely need an outlet. I am an addict/alcoholic. I was "doing the deal" for about 2.5 to 3 years and stopped going. It's a very long story as to why I stopped going to meetings...but the main reason was because my ex-husband was going to the same meetings. I had a PFA against him and did NOT want to run into him EVER! So I stopped going to meetings all together. But I still had the principles and spirituality that I gained being sober during the previous years. There were times I wanted to use...but I kept strong. The last meeting that I have been to was probably back in 2001. I would have a drink here and there...it has SLLLLLOWLY progressed since 2001. Until recently. If I drank it would normally be at home with my bf or with family. Recently, I went to a bar with a bunch of "friends" from work...(who I've now learned are ALL active alcoholics!!!!) This ONE particular night set off my whole addiction again!!!!! I was binge drinking every weekend until I would BLACK out. Inside of me it's a HUGE battle because I was in the program for a while and have that knowledge....but at the same time I am ADDICTED and want more, more, more. I have two small children and I believe that them coming into my life kept me at least a "dry drunk". Now, this one night at the bar with alcohol loving friends has pushed me over the line. I KNOW I want to be sober. For myself, for my bf, and for our kids. I want my old self back...the funloving, spiritual, artistic, SOBER me! Ok, i think I have rambled enough... I hope someone out there understands me!!!!!!!!!! I just needed to say these things! I'm hoping to find some like minded females to be able to relate to. I'm in need of some support!!!!!!!!!!!! thank you!!!! -]<risty |
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04-16-2006, 07:41 PM
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| Forum Leader  Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy
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|  Welcome to SR, shiningstar521. Glad you're here. Getting to a meeting here is a great start. Also, keep reading and posting. You'll find a lot of information and support here.
__________________ “The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” ~Marianne Williamson  |
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04-16-2006, 07:44 PM
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| Forum Leader  Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light
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Hi Kristy, I'm glad you found us and we can offer lots of support and encouragement. If you want to quit, you can do it. You can stop drinking and have the life you want to have. I think you listened to that voice in your head that told you that you could manage a drink now and then. But, you and I can't do that, at least not for very long before we head back down into that black hole. I hope you keep posting. There are lots of great women here on the Women's forum.
__________________ Anna  "I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Maya Angelou |
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04-16-2006, 08:18 PM
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| Forum Leader Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy
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Oh, Kristy - I just had another thought for you. How about women's meetings? That's all I pretty much go to these days. I find that the woman's meetings are so much richer and deeper than the mixed meets. I really encourage you to find some f2f support. Glad you're here!!
__________________ “The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” ~Marianne Williamson |
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04-16-2006, 08:39 PM
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| We all need each other.  Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: The road of happy destiny.
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Glad you're here, Kristy, and glad you made it to our meeting!
__________________  "You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.....do the thing you think you cannot do." ~Eleanor Roosevelt |
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04-17-2006, 09:14 AM
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| ndgrace Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: VA
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I am new here also, but have recieved enough support and tough love to commit to meetings, one day at a time. I have a very similar background. Sober during pregnancies, and controlled?? drinking while the kids were small, to be alert if they woke up sick etc., then when they were old enough to take care of themselves I began to drink more, went to AA for 2 years, stopped going....started to drink again for the last 1 1/2 years. I felt guilt every single night, but the insanity drew me back for more. Posting here has been a tremendous help, we can commit together, not to drink for today, and attend a meeting tonight. We know the program, and that it works, I am not sure why I did not go back sooner! Praying for you, Karen  |
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04-17-2006, 08:25 PM
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| ~Zen Sistah~ Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Selinsgrove, PA
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| thanks everyone
.........for the warm welcome. I sooo appreciate it. I'm glad to be able to finally let things out again... Have always had that problem of keeping everything bottled up! I don't want to be that person anymore!! thanks for the support  hope I can do the same for you all... love n light, -]<risty |
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04-18-2006, 04:08 PM
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| Member  Join Date: May 2004 Location: Never, Never land
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Hey Kristy, Welcome to SR. it's a great place for love and support. Where is Selinsgrove? I am in bucks county PA, just outside of Philly. I always get curious when I see PA.
__________________  I came into this program to save my a** and found out it was attached to my soul. --Anonymous |
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04-18-2006, 04:43 PM
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| Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Canada
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With your past recovery work, it's probably not a new idea to you that keeping things bottled up and addictive behaviors go hand in hand. It can be scary sometimes to start uncorking the bottle, and being honest about what's inside, especially the dark stuff, but this is a safe place to do it. best gf | |
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04-19-2006, 11:21 AM
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| ~Zen Sistah~ Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Selinsgrove, PA
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Selinsgrove is in central PA... just north of harrisburg... I have a friend in bucks county! And know all about Philly...lol Spent >too< much time there...if you know what i mean! I'm about 2.5 hours from philly...much love -]<risty | |
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04-26-2006, 04:04 PM
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| Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Burnsville, MN
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| You can find another meeting!
My Dear, There is ALWAYS another meeting where your ex-husband would NOT be... find one and go - if you are really ready! Join us as we "trudge the road to Happy Destiny"! Sandy |
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04-26-2006, 04:54 PM
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| ~Author of My Life~  Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't....
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I am in Williamsport PA.........Selingsgrove isn't too far from here...........glad you're here!! LOts of good stuff here for ya! {{{welcoming hugs}}}
__________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~  |
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