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PaperDolls · 05-18-2006, 09:42 AM

meeeeee too two

daddysgirl29 · 05-18-2006, 09:46 AM

PPD - you realize that whenever I heard that song "I'm Just a Girl" (from No Doubt(?)), I think of you!

PaperDolls · 05-18-2006, 10:15 AM

Well, no dg, I didn't realize that. But you know what I did just realize?! I mis-spelled GIRL. How could I do that?! Now I can't find where to change it.

Pffffft.....

Got a new avatar too. Whaddya think?

daddysgirl29 · 05-18-2006, 10:24 AM

LOL! Yes, I saw the misspelling, but I thought you did it on purpose!

I do like your new avartar! To change your signature or whatever, go to your PM's and in the user's box, I think you click on 'options' or something.

PaperDolls · 05-18-2006, 02:54 PM

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Originally Posted by daddysgirl29

LOL! Yes, I saw the misspelling, but I thought you did it on purpose!

I do like your new avartar! To change your signature or whatever, go to your PM's and in the user's box, I think you click on 'options' or something.

Well -- I can't find it -- everything is screwy around here right now. Sort of like me......screwy.

Justme57 · 05-18-2006, 03:09 PM

Waaaaaaaaaaagh whats happening!

I have been working for 2 days, and everything has changed

How you doing PD ?

HUGX
Lee

PaperDolls · 05-19-2006, 08:12 AM

Hi Lee - I'm sick and I can't get over it. I'm still coughing like crazy.

Yeah - it's changed a bit around here but change is good, right?

~doll

PaperDolls · 05-22-2006, 10:45 AM

Good Morning!

Boy howdy what a long weekend. My brother go married and it was so hectic. I really needed to get more sleep. My gf is out of town and I was sort of panicky last night about being alone. I couldn't fall asleep. I know I was still awake at 4AM, lying in bed.......late to work of course. I hope I get some sleep tonight. She's gone until at least Wednesday. Blah!

Had a nice time sober at my brothers wedding and reception. My gf said she was proud of me for staying sober and that I was much more fun this way.

The other night I couldn't sleep because, for some reason, I started thinking about stupid, horrible stuff I've done when drunk. It's weird how you forget or blackout some of that stuff and then all of a sudden it just pops into your head. I was feeling really bad about myself that night. Still -- when I think about some of that stuff I just really can not believe it. It makes my stomach turn. Helps me stay sober I suppose.

So - that's all from me. I'm just decent these days. I never did get myself back into therapy. I think I'm afraid of it. Actually, I know I am. It's just so much work and so much easier not to deal with stuff. I know it's not healthy. I should talk to my gf about that. I should tell her how I feel about myself. Sometimes I just feel so toxic.

Well - hope you all have a great day!
~doll

PaperDolls · 05-22-2006, 06:43 PM

So.....I'm home alone tonight and I'm really worried about sleeping. It's only 745pm and I'm worried about it. I think I've got an hour before the sun goes down. I hate when it gets dark. Usually, now would be the time for me to drink a six pack or so and pass out.......I'm not craving a beer but I'd like some lortab.

Grrrrrr! I wonder if my meds aren't working anymore. For so long they seemed to help me be alone at night. Now I'm scared again. I don't know how to get over it!

Ok -- just had to get that out.

PaperDolls · 05-23-2006, 08:40 AM

I took my Lunesta at 930, got in bed at 10ish and feel asleep just fine. Thank goodness. I was afraid that since I was already freaking about it at 730 I'd never get to sleep.

I'm in a blah! mood today. I'm alone at the office and I like it that way. Sometimes it's nice when it's just very, very quiet.

~doll

GettingFree · 05-23-2006, 09:01 AM

Hey PD,

It's often worse imagining things beforehand, isn't it? I'm expert at that!

And then it's really helpful when we see that what we imagined was far worse than what actually takes place. Good teaching for us all int that.

Glad you're staying off the lortab -- good for you!

best
gf

PaperDolls · 05-30-2006, 10:47 AM

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It's often worse imagining things beforehand, isn't it? I'm expert at that!

No kidding!!

I found some lortab in the medicine closet on Monday. I took one. Just one, but I wanted more. I slept ALL day on Sunday. My gf was pissed about it. I'm not sure why I was so tired, but I just couldn't stay awake. She thinks I'm just lazy, may be I am. I'm not sure what the deal is. Chronic fatigue?

Whatever -- It feels like a Monday fer sure. I'm busy at work today.

Hope you all have a good one.

05-18-2006, 09:42 AM	#76 (permalink)
PaperDolls Miss Grumpy Pain in the Pants Join Date: May 2004 Location: Midwest Posts: 5,486 Blog Entries: 10	meeeeee too two __________________ Sober Date: 11.09.2008

05-18-2006, 09:46 AM	#77 (permalink)
daddysgirl29 Still learning; ever grateful Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: VA Posts: 842	PPD - you realize that whenever I heard that song "I'm Just a Girl" (from No Doubt(?)), I think of you! __________________ daddysgirl29 _____________________________________________ When in doubt, look up!

05-18-2006, 10:15 AM	#78 (permalink)
PaperDolls Miss Grumpy Pain in the Pants Join Date: May 2004 Location: Midwest Posts: 5,486 Blog Entries: 10	Well, no dg, I didn't realize that. But you know what I did just realize?! I mis-spelled GIRL. How could I do that?! Now I can't find where to change it. Pffffft..... Got a new avatar too. Whaddya think? __________________ Sober Date: 11.09.2008

05-18-2006, 10:24 AM	#79 (permalink)
daddysgirl29 Still learning; ever grateful Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: VA Posts: 842	LOL! Yes, I saw the misspelling, but I thought you did it on purpose! I do like your new avartar! To change your signature or whatever, go to your PM's and in the user's box, I think you click on 'options' or something. __________________ daddysgirl29 _____________________________________________ When in doubt, look up!

05-18-2006, 03:09 PM	#81 (permalink)
Justme57 Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Melbourne victoria Posts: 1,980 Blog Entries: 7	Waaaaaaaaaaagh whats happening! I have been working for 2 days, and everything has changed How you doing PD ? HUGX Lee __________________

05-19-2006, 08:12 AM	#82 (permalink)
PaperDolls Miss Grumpy Pain in the Pants Join Date: May 2004 Location: Midwest Posts: 5,486 Blog Entries: 10	Hi Lee - I'm sick and I can't get over it. I'm still coughing like crazy. Yeah - it's changed a bit around here but change is good, right? ~doll __________________ Sober Date: 11.09.2008

05-22-2006, 10:45 AM	#83 (permalink)
PaperDolls Miss Grumpy Pain in the Pants Join Date: May 2004 Location: Midwest Posts: 5,486 Blog Entries: 10	Good Morning! Boy howdy what a long weekend. My brother go married and it was so hectic. I really needed to get more sleep. My gf is out of town and I was sort of panicky last night about being alone. I couldn't fall asleep. I know I was still awake at 4AM, lying in bed.......late to work of course. I hope I get some sleep tonight. She's gone until at least Wednesday. Blah! Had a nice time sober at my brothers wedding and reception. My gf said she was proud of me for staying sober and that I was much more fun this way. The other night I couldn't sleep because, for some reason, I started thinking about stupid, horrible stuff I've done when drunk. It's weird how you forget or blackout some of that stuff and then all of a sudden it just pops into your head. I was feeling really bad about myself that night. Still -- when I think about some of that stuff I just really can not believe it. It makes my stomach turn. Helps me stay sober I suppose. So - that's all from me. I'm just decent these days. I never did get myself back into therapy. I think I'm afraid of it. Actually, I know I am. It's just so much work and so much easier not to deal with stuff. I know it's not healthy. I should talk to my gf about that. I should tell her how I feel about myself. Sometimes I just feel so toxic. Well - hope you all have a great day! ~doll __________________ Sober Date: 11.09.2008

05-22-2006, 06:43 PM	#84 (permalink)
PaperDolls Miss Grumpy Pain in the Pants Join Date: May 2004 Location: Midwest Posts: 5,486 Blog Entries: 10	So.....I'm home alone tonight and I'm really worried about sleeping. It's only 745pm and I'm worried about it. I think I've got an hour before the sun goes down. I hate when it gets dark. Usually, now would be the time for me to drink a six pack or so and pass out.......I'm not craving a beer but I'd like some lortab. Grrrrrr! I wonder if my meds aren't working anymore. For so long they seemed to help me be alone at night. Now I'm scared again. I don't know how to get over it! Ok -- just had to get that out. __________________ Sober Date: 11.09.2008

05-23-2006, 08:40 AM	#85 (permalink)
PaperDolls Miss Grumpy Pain in the Pants Join Date: May 2004 Location: Midwest Posts: 5,486 Blog Entries: 10	I took my Lunesta at 930, got in bed at 10ish and feel asleep just fine. Thank goodness. I was afraid that since I was already freaking about it at 730 I'd never get to sleep. I'm in a blah! mood today. I'm alone at the office and I like it that way. Sometimes it's nice when it's just very, very quiet. ~doll __________________ Sober Date: 11.09.2008

05-23-2006, 09:01 AM	#86 (permalink)
GettingFree Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Canada Posts: 690	Hey PD, It's often worse imagining things beforehand, isn't it? I'm expert at that! And then it's really helpful when we see that what we imagined was far worse than what actually takes place. Good teaching for us all int that. Glad you're staying off the lortab -- good for you! best gf

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