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Valeria · 12-31-2005, 07:03 PM

I've been going to AA since July. I've relapsed so many times. Today is Day 1 for me....again.

I've posted on the Newcomer's forum, but I never even read any other forums. I don't know why not.

There's lots of good stuff to read here. I really want 2006 to be the year I stay sober.:abc:

**Phinneas** · 12-31-2005, 07:13 PM

Welcome back, Veleria. I didn't get it on my first try either. (In fact, can't say that I've met anyone who did.) May 2006 be YOUR year.

Sobriety is awesome! :bbl:

hopealwayz · 12-31-2005, 07:17 PM

I'm happy that you are giving it another. I didn't get it on my first try either. That's ok for us, it just builds strength for the journey. Keep at it , you will get it!!

And we are here for you along the way!

Keep on looking ahead and not back. It is only getting better from here!

**Rowan** · 12-31-2005, 07:56 PM

Hi Valeria,

I didn't get it on the first try either (or second, or third, or ... well you get the picture), in fact, I relapsed on Christmas Eve. Having regrets won't change that; I've just got to try again. Lets leave the past in the past, and start over fresh, what do you say? Keep posting and let us get to know you. Happy New Year!

Rowan

Valeria · 12-31-2005, 08:01 PM

Thanks, everyone.

I've got a meeting to go to tomorrow morning...start the day off right!

**51anna** · 12-31-2005, 09:09 PM

Hi Val,

I didn't get it right for a long time either Val. And, you're right, there's lots of good stuff to read on these forums and the women here are smart and caring. You'll find lots of support!

**CarolD** · 12-31-2005, 11:54 PM

Gee...I was in and out of AA for years before I finally quit.

What clicked for me was reading
"Under The Influence" by Dr. J. Milam and K. Ketcham

Amazon carries it and it's sequel by Ketxham...
" Beyond The Influence"

I used the info in 'Under" added God and AA
and I did quit.

Blessings....

MNGirlyGirl · 01-01-2006, 06:39 AM

Val, this is a good time for new beginnings. Jump back on the wagon and don't look back!! Happy New Year!

Valeria · 01-01-2006, 11:10 AM

This is day 2 for me! I slept in and missed my meeting, but I have one later in the afternoon to go to. Also, I'll call my sponsor later and work on an assignment she gave me.

Have a good day, everyone!

In memory of miracle · 01-01-2006, 11:12 AM

Welcome back Val!
Bless, Trish

Ann25 · 01-01-2006, 02:50 PM

(((((((((((((Valeria))))))))))))))
Listen--I have relapsed more times then I care to remember. But the last time really was bad................emotionally........The guilt gets worse---at least for me. You have to pick yourself back up and get back to your program. I have a few months under my belt but every day is a struggle. We're addicts--plain and simple. We need to be aware of what triggers us--and be aware of our "stinkin' thinkin'" I know for me that if I dont use the tools that I have I will go back out there--and maybe not come back.
No matter what happens--work on YOU AND YOUR RECOVERY!!!! If you slip--dust yourself off and get back with the program. Go to as many meetings as you can--that really works for me--I need to be around people who can relate to what Im going through.
And keep posting at SR. Good people here.
Hang in there!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ann

Valeria · 01-01-2006, 08:10 PM

It's the end of Day 2.....still sober.

I went to one meeting, prayed, and spoke to two friends in recovery. I also took all my medication as prescribed, and my vitamins.

Before I go to bed I'm going to read some recovery literature, something just forfun,and pray thanking my HP for keeping me sober today.

Tomorrow I plan to go to at least one meeting,talk to my sponsor,and go for a walk.

Thanks for all of your support!

**Rowan** · 01-01-2006, 08:19 PM

Congratulations on day 2! You're inspiring me.

Valeria · 01-01-2006, 08:29 PM

I hope you all don't mind if I post about what I'm doing in recovery every day.I do write in a journal, but I also like the feedback I get here.

**Phinneas** · 01-01-2006, 10:22 PM

Great idea. Post away. Glad to have you with us. 'Grats on day TWO!

praying4peace · 01-02-2006, 09:14 PM

Hello again, Valeria! You just posted a nice message to me not too long ago -- thank you!

I just wanted to say that I find journaling to be very, very helpful, in sooo many ways! I've kept a diary/journal ever since I was 11 years old, and I'm now 35. I don't write daily, and sometimes I'll go months without making an entry. I just write when I feel the need to. Maybe you can relate to that??

Don't give up, Valeria! This disease we have is cunning, baffling, and powerful, remember? I don't know ONE PERSON who has EVER stopped drinking and not ever relapsed. Not one! We're all in this for the long haul, and we're all here to help and support each other. Isn't it great? You'll get where you're meant to be when you're meant to get there.

I know exactly how shi**y it feels to relapse. Been there, done that, about 20 times over -- probably more, I've lost count. But you're gonna do it and succeed! In fact, ever single minute/hour/day/week, etc. without a drink is a success! I'm only on my 16th day this time, and it's been tough! I just have to plan each day when I wake up...sounds like you're doing the same. It seems to help me if I don't leave too much time "open", or unscheduled. As much as I hate always 'doing, doing, doing', I know that my worst enemy is boredom.

I wish you 24 more hours!

Valeria · 01-02-2006, 10:05 PM

Day 3--made it!

I went to a meeting, took a walk, cooked a nice dinner for my family...even had game night with my son...and did not drink! I read from my meditation books when I got up...oh, and I had a long talk with my sponsor. My depression is better today.

I'm going to write in my journal and read from the BB before bed...and thank God for another day sober!

See you tomorrow! Sweet dreams, everyone!

praying4peace · 01-02-2006, 10:42 PM

Keep it up! You've made it THREE DAYS! Wooohooo! I'm so happy for you and I'll be thinking of and praying for you every day, as I do for all of us who are in this great struggle together.

Peace,
B.

Cathy31 · 01-03-2006, 06:48 AM

Welcome back ! I bet you're starting to feel great again! I also did not get it first time around...hardly!! But we have to follow whatever route is there for us, and your time will come. You are doing great! may it be now in 2006!
Cathy31
x

12-31-2005, 07:03 PM	#1 (permalink)
Valeria Member Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Taos, New Mexico Posts: 67	Starting Over I've been going to AA since July. I've relapsed so many times. Today is Day 1 for me....again. I've posted on the Newcomer's forum, but I never even read any other forums. I don't know why not. There's lots of good stuff to read here. I really want 2006 to be the year I stay sober.:abc:

12-31-2005, 07:13 PM	#2 (permalink)
Phinneas Forum Leader Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy Posts: 2,597	Welcome back, Veleria. I didn't get it on my first try either. (In fact, can't say that I've met anyone who did.) May 2006 be YOUR year. Sobriety is awesome! :bbl:
	__________________ “The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” ~Marianne Williamson

12-31-2005, 07:17 PM	#3 (permalink)
hopealwayz Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: somewhere Posts: 3,516	I'm happy that you are giving it another. I didn't get it on my first try either. That's ok for us, it just builds strength for the journey. Keep at it , you will get it!! And we are here for you along the way! Keep on looking ahead and not back. It is only getting better from here!
	__________________

12-31-2005, 07:56 PM	#4 (permalink)
Rowan Sheriff Newf Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 8,468	Hi Valeria, I didn't get it on the first try either (or second, or third, or ... well you get the picture), in fact, I relapsed on Christmas Eve. Having regrets won't change that; I've just got to try again. Lets leave the past in the past, and start over fresh, what do you say? Keep posting and let us get to know you. Happy New Year! Rowan
	__________________ If all the world's a stage, I want to operate the trap door.

12-31-2005, 09:09 PM	#6 (permalink)
51anna Forum Leader Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 10,275	Hi Val, I didn't get it right for a long time either Val. And, you're right, there's lots of good stuff to read on these forums and the women here are smart and caring. You'll find lots of support!
	__________________ Anna "I don't know what the future is holding in store I don't know where Im going, Im not sure where Ive been Theres a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I don't need to see the end." John Denver

12-31-2005, 08:01 PM	#5 (permalink)
Valeria Member Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Taos, New Mexico Posts: 67	Thanks, everyone. I've got a meeting to go to tomorrow morning...start the day off right!

12-31-2005, 11:54 PM	#7 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 13,782	Gee...I was in and out of AA for years before I finally quit. What clicked for me was reading "Under The Influence" by Dr. J. Milam and K. Ketcham Amazon carries it and it's sequel by Ketxham... " Beyond The Influence" I used the info in 'Under" added God and AA and I did quit. Blessings....
	__________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery...

01-01-2006, 06:39 AM	#8 (permalink)
MNGirlyGirl Good Clean Fun!! Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Plymouth, MN Posts: 930	Val, this is a good time for new beginnings. Jump back on the wagon and don't look back!! Happy New Year!
	__________________ -- The good news is that your feelings come back...The bad news is that your feelings come back.

01-01-2006, 11:10 AM	#9 (permalink)
Valeria Member Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Taos, New Mexico Posts: 67	This is day 2 for me! I slept in and missed my meeting, but I have one later in the afternoon to go to. Also, I'll call my sponsor later and work on an assignment she gave me. Have a good day, everyone!

01-01-2006, 11:12 AM	#10 (permalink)
In memory of miracle In Memory Of Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Connecticut. Posts: 3,740	Welcome back Val! Bless, Trish
	__________________ In Memory Of Teach only love...

01-01-2006, 02:50 PM	#11 (permalink)
Ann25 Still hangin` on... Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: MA Posts: 336	(((((((((((((Valeria)))))))))))))) Listen--I have relapsed more times then I care to remember. But the last time really was bad................emotionally........The guilt gets worse---at least for me. You have to pick yourself back up and get back to your program. I have a few months under my belt but every day is a struggle. We're addicts--plain and simple. We need to be aware of what triggers us--and be aware of our "stinkin' thinkin'" I know for me that if I dont use the tools that I have I will go back out there--and maybe not come back. No matter what happens--work on YOU AND YOUR RECOVERY!!!! If you slip--dust yourself off and get back with the program. Go to as many meetings as you can--that really works for me--I need to be around people who can relate to what Im going through. And keep posting at SR. Good people here. Hang in there!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ann
	__________________ "Our greastest glory consists not in ever falling, but rising everytime we fall." -Confucius

01-01-2006, 08:10 PM	#12 (permalink)
Valeria Member Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Taos, New Mexico Posts: 67	It's the end of Day 2.....still sober. I went to one meeting, prayed, and spoke to two friends in recovery. I also took all my medication as prescribed, and my vitamins. Before I go to bed I'm going to read some recovery literature, something just forfun,and pray thanking my HP for keeping me sober today. Tomorrow I plan to go to at least one meeting,talk to my sponsor,and go for a walk. Thanks for all of your support!

01-01-2006, 08:19 PM	#13 (permalink)
Rowan Sheriff Newf Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 8,468	Congratulations on day 2! You're inspiring me.
	__________________ If all the world's a stage, I want to operate the trap door.

01-01-2006, 08:29 PM	#14 (permalink)
Valeria Member Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Taos, New Mexico Posts: 67	I hope you all don't mind if I post about what I'm doing in recovery every day.I do write in a journal, but I also like the feedback I get here.

01-01-2006, 10:22 PM	#15 (permalink)
Phinneas Forum Leader Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: fumbling towards ecstasy Posts: 2,597	Great idea. Post away. Glad to have you with us. 'Grats on day TWO!
	__________________ “The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.” ~Marianne Williamson

01-02-2006, 09:14 PM	#16 (permalink)
praying4peace Member Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Brew City USA Posts: 9	Journaling is a great tool! Hello again, Valeria! You just posted a nice message to me not too long ago -- thank you! I just wanted to say that I find journaling to be very, very helpful, in sooo many ways! I've kept a diary/journal ever since I was 11 years old, and I'm now 35. I don't write daily, and sometimes I'll go months without making an entry. I just write when I feel the need to. Maybe you can relate to that?? Don't give up, Valeria! This disease we have is cunning, baffling, and powerful, remember? I don't know ONE PERSON who has EVER stopped drinking and not ever relapsed. Not one! We're all in this for the long haul, and we're all here to help and support each other. Isn't it great? You'll get where you're meant to be when you're meant to get there. I know exactly how shi**y it feels to relapse. Been there, done that, about 20 times over -- probably more, I've lost count. But you're gonna do it and succeed! In fact, ever single minute/hour/day/week, etc. without a drink is a success! I'm only on my 16th day this time, and it's been tough! I just have to plan each day when I wake up...sounds like you're doing the same. It seems to help me if I don't leave too much time "open", or unscheduled. As much as I hate always 'doing, doing, doing', I know that my worst enemy is boredom. I wish you 24 more hours!
	__________________ We all need a good kick in the caboose now and then to keep us moving in the right direction!

01-02-2006, 10:05 PM	#17 (permalink)
Valeria Member Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Taos, New Mexico Posts: 67	Day 3--made it! I went to a meeting, took a walk, cooked a nice dinner for my family...even had game night with my son...and did not drink! I read from my meditation books when I got up...oh, and I had a long talk with my sponsor. My depression is better today. I'm going to write in my journal and read from the BB before bed...and thank God for another day sober! See you tomorrow! Sweet dreams, everyone!

01-02-2006, 10:42 PM	#18 (permalink)
praying4peace Member Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Brew City USA Posts: 9	Good for you!!! Keep it up! You've made it THREE DAYS! Wooohooo! I'm so happy for you and I'll be thinking of and praying for you every day, as I do for all of us who are in this great struggle together. Peace, B.
	__________________ We all need a good kick in the caboose now and then to keep us moving in the right direction!

01-03-2006, 06:48 AM	#19 (permalink)
Cathy31 1 bite&all resistance crumbles Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: IRELAND Posts: 1,760	Welcome back ! I bet you're starting to feel great again! I also did not get it first time around...hardly!! But we have to follow whatever route is there for us, and your time will come. You are doing great! may it be now in 2006! Cathy31 x