I miss him

[hopealwayz]

This evening, I am truly missing the guy that I had to let go. I am so weak because I called his cell phone 2 times and let it ring once and then hung up. I really miss him and I want to talk to him. But, I already told him that I had to let him go so I cannot call him. I wish I could talk to him....I miss our talks.

I was pretty beaten up today and usually he would have called to check in on me and he would make sure that I was ok. But, today he didn't call. It really hurt me because in my heart I was hoping that he would call to see if I was alright but it just kind of settled in that if he started calling me , then that would not be letting go. I miss him sooooo much! I have to make it through the night without calling him and I hope he is ok.

[SupCola]

Hi Angel
Sorry to hear you're going through this tough time. I just left a 10 year relationship. He USED to be my best friend, but our drinking caused many problems and quite frankly, we began to change because of our alcoholism. I didn't leave to get sober, but couldn't get sober while with him. Fact is today is Day 1 and I moved 5 weeks ago. I don't know what your story is, but hang in there. You had to let him go for a reason - just keep reminding yourself why. That's what I've been doing and it seems to help.

Best of luck to you. I'll check back with you.
Gina

[wolflet]

hang in there grrrrl!

if you made the right decission in letting him go then it will show, if you are ment to be back with him later, it will happen........good luck

(ps) don't pick up the phone!

[pumpkinangel]

AngelHugs
I can so relate. I have had a really drama filled last 2 years. None of which has been anything but destuctive for me. I am married and have had 2 extrmarital relationships. I am not proud of any of it. I wish I could say I wanted to take it all back. My husband is wonderful and we have managed to stay together despite all that has happened. I have to say that I think I am a love addict too. I adore the feeling of falling in love. Right now I am at odds with myself bc the last relationship (while abusive and painful) for some reason has been so hard to shake. I guess it is bc he was someone I fell for when I was young and then sought out again. He has done so many aweful things to me (beat me up..more than once, said the most mean things, stolen money from me, and taken advantage of me in so many other countless ways) For some reason I continued to keep him in my life. My husband is a saint, loves me and treats me so special! How dumb can I be, why would I want to keep this looser in my life? For some reason the attraction I feel for him plagues my mind. I wish I knew what the hell I see in him. He could ruin my life easy and I have still continued to take chances that I know I will pay for when found out. For some reason I don't seem to care. I am so dumb and I know it yet for some reason I am addicted to him as well. I am sorry for the long story but I need to vent and wonder what the hell I am doing this for. Every time i have the chance to walk away after he hurts me I never stick to my guns I cave and blow it off so I can be with him. What is it with this state I am in? Is it love? My better judgement says Hell No! Any thoughts?