Lets talk recovery...

[Paulie]

So what have you done for your recovery today?

[michski]

(((( Paulie ))))
How nice of you to ask!

I drank my morning coffee with SR this morning! I haven't had a lot of time to plug in to recovery lately and it's so nice to check in with everyone and contribute my 2 cents.

I am finished with early recovery... white knuckled it thru PAWS... I grew up doing the 12 Steps of AA.. I got it back together with my husband... I am just over 3 and a half years sober/clean and my life is good!

I did read another interesting post about Ultram addiction and since I take it on a daily basis I reminded myself again, that my return trip back into the slavery of addiction could be just a few pills away. I re established with myself my committment to NOT ever let my past become my future.

Life is good and it's up to me to keep it that way!

Hugskis,
Michele

[Paulie]

I re established with myself my committment to NOT ever let my past become my future.

WOW what an awesome statement!!!

I had my morning coffee with SR too . Then I did the treadmill YUCK, now eggs for breakfast (with SR) and some work. Tonight a meeting.

It is a GREAT day.

[Fire_Wind_Rain]

I've participated in sharing the message today, as well as being here at SR.

[skissors6]

i am starting to take care of myself! imm aking the step to try and care about my health and well-being.

today is day three of my new 'self-care' where i have been eating 3 meals a day and they are full nutrient meals.

FYI: i used to eat like maybe a bag of chips or candy for a meal.

but see? im trying. and im taking my vitamins too!


-Skiss

[Chy]

After my meeting last night I realized I needed to do some meditating so got up early and did that! Worked a Step 1-3 and off I went to another hectic day but HP's got me covered.

[abtchonamission]

I was let go from my job last month. Today, only 5 minutes ago, I received a phone call, asking me to forward my resume as an attachment, because the woman on the phone has a law firm that she might be able to have me working at as soon as tomorrow.

It did nothing for my recovery, so to speak. It did make me realize what my recovery has done for me. It made me realize that my job never defined me...but that having a job, being a productive member of society, having the ability to support my son no matter what happens with Mike/Mike and I, does a lot for my feelings of self-worth, I feel valuable to myself when I feel confident that I can take care of me and mine on my own...and I guess that maybe, just maybe, recognizing that today was what I've done for my recovery...I recognized that my recovery has brought blessings to me that I've only just discovered, and more that I've yet to realize. Today, I recognized my recovery working in my life.

[Paulie]

Today, I recognized my recovery working in my life.

(((Trish)))

[liveweyerd]

ya just had to ask din'ta ya???

I am holding myself back from the compulsion to call the new serice agency that just gave me a position nervous because I haven't received my contract or payroll info yet. They sent an email and said it was attached but forgot to attach it. I emailed once, I phoned the next day and left a message. I keep checking my mail, worrying what has gone wrong. ugh. But I will not call sounding unprofessional and panicy. Remembering that just because I think something, feel something, worry over something doesn't make it true.
I am having a hard time getting into action and there's much to do. But I did get some priorities taken care of, like a DR visit Fri before I leave Sun.
Should have started laundry and sorting what to store, what to take this morning, but just got started. However, that is one load done and the day isn't over.
I promise not to run away from the nerves and overwhelmedness by covering up my head and taking a nap.
I don't know how to answer without talking about footwork, because that is where I get paralyzed and hung up.
hugs to all,
live

[Paulie]

Hey footwork...that is a huge part of recovery, doing the footwork.

I liked what you said about just because we are worried about something doesnt make it real. That is so important for me to remember.

[4health]

I wanted to get up and get on the computer to visit you guys this morning but couldn't. I went to volenteer at my daughters school. She's having a hard time, I was able to leave our younger daughter with my husband and went. The teacher seemed genuinely happy to have a parent there. I don't think they get many parents in there. It made me feel good. I was doing something for my daughter and that just feels right. Oh and I like the teacher.

I am feeling awesome these days. I ate both a good breakfast and good lunch. I walked to and from the school. To me, exercise is Key but I have a back issue that is being cared for by my chiropractor. Until that is fixed I can't really work out. So walking is good at this point.

I got to write in my journal, visit the board and take my vitamines last night. I missed you guys the night before.

[Paulie]

I was doing something for my daughter and that just feels right.

I would say that was for your recovery to (((huge hugs to you)))

[2stop]

I am in a take a risk mode!! And also disciplining myself to follow through with decisions. I planned a yard sale for tomorrow, Friday and Sat and I have it almost ready to go! Says rain tomorrow so I have set up on my porch and dn room..an inside sale for a day won't hurt. Being flexible is another thing I am working on. So many times the past few years I would want to have a yard sale...but always backed out from fear..afraid to deal with people, afraid I would have a panic attack and embarrass myself....well, no more...if I decide to do something...I DO IT!! Right then....thinking gets me in all sorts of trouble....just do it is my motto now.

[51anna]

I have found myself in a position "maybe a job will come up (where I volunteer), maybe it won't, be patient, we might take a different direction altogether". In the past this would have driven me crazy. I had to be in control and also I would second-guess myself all the time - "maybe you should have, what if you..." Now, I'm actually pretty calm and staying open to the possibilities. And I have a firm belief that the right thing will happen.

That's pretty amazing for me!!

[Paulie]

This is awesome ladies, thank you ALL so much for sharing your recovery with me.

[skissors6]

thanx to you, paulie, for inviting us all to share our recovery with you! and thank you, because iactually got some recovery from you right now!

i ws reading through all the replies to this thread and then i read your signature. that is just what i needed to hear. that always seems to happen to me...when something is bothering me, i will always come across something that shines some light on the issue. thank you. your signature kinda goes along with my signature (sort of). i always assume people hate me just cause they don't call me back or whatever stupid reason, and i was a little sad last night after my sponsee get together, and i was getting a little resentful that people are only there and 'love' me at their convenience. but reading your signature reminds me that i have to accept those people for who and what they are and if i could really take advantage of those times they ARE there, then maybe i wouldn't be so sad when they aren't there. ??

so, anyway, thank you! you helped me to remember what ive learned in this program.

-Skiss

[Paulie]

[Pony]

Today being the first day of this month, not that I was waiting for that, so I recommitted myself to my goals for my future. Making up my mind to live each day the best way I can.

I know this is very general, but maybe in time I can get more specific.

[2stop]

Today, for my recovery......I relaxed and watched a couple of movies. Been on such a whirlwind tour of getting back into life again, with driving for the firts time in years!!, leaving the house every day!!... Had a yard sale this weekend, made $78!! Dead tired from all that work, and my body is screaming in pain...but I am content.....I am learning to balance and pace myself. I resist taking relaxing times for myself....so today I made sure to just take it easy!!!

[Paulie]

Well yesterday I went to a meeting in the town next to mine that I had never been to before. I had plans to go with a friend, she couldnt' go, I still went by myself. This was HUGE for me. I dont like to go places by myself that I have never been to before, not even meetings. I am embarassed to say that because I thougth by the time I had been clean this long that would have changed but it hasnt' changed at all. Goes to show time doesnt' mean all that much.

Anyway, I did it I went by myself...the meeting was friggin HUGE!!!! (I also dont' do huge meetings very well) I recognized a few people from over the years that I had heard speak but I didnt' know anyone. It was AWESOME. I heard just what I needed to hear. After the awesome speaker the theme of the meeting went towards change. It was about how once we put the drugs down, that is when the change really starts, the change within us.

So today I am working.

thanks ladies for always being here for me.

[Kylah]

todat for my recovery i will reconize the value of ME i will show up and do the foot work,most importantly whatch my H.A.L.T.S...never get to HUNGRY,ANGERY<LONLEY,or TIERD.take care of me today and the rest will all fall into place.hope you have the best day Paulie

[splendra]

I have a friend who calls me crying all the time about the same things over and over(the love triangle and her other lover whom she supports) and I told her I could not listen to her cr@p any more. I realize again.... that it makes me sick to listen to this person say the same things over and over again. She says I am is the only person who will listen to her so I got a clue and realized again.... I am not doing me or her a favor by listening. The codie in me has been her hostage for the last week. You would not believe the outragous messages she has been leaving me today....oh the drama of it all I can't afford it.

She is controling as hell

I am back to doing what I was doing. I could not figure out what was wrong with me but my H helped me to see what was going on when he heard my end of a conversation with her which was almost nothing said on my part while I listen to her cry and rant and rage. Then he heard a message from her where she was all crying and screaming and he said to me "how can you allow this you can't fix this.... He is right....when he is right he is right...