Need Prayers And To Vent

[hja1407]

My husband is a crack addict as well as coke,pills okay lets admit it he is just a trash addict if he can get his hands on it he will do it. nobody has seen or heard from him since 10:00 this morning and he NEVER does this. I am so tired of dealing with the drama and choas that surrounds this . I am a recovering alcholic and coke addict. I am tired of him testing my strength against his weakness. I don't want to give up on him,but what else is there. We have 3 beautiful kids who love him and I will love him to my dying breathe.
heather

[51anna]

Hja,

I hope by now you have heard something from your husband. I am sorry for your situation and for you and your children having to live in such chaos. Keep visiting SR for support. I am sure it can't be easy to have to work on your own sobriety while living in such a situation. But, you must stay sober for you and your children.

Love, Anna

[Carchick4life]

I hope he’s okay. And I’m sorry that you have to go through the pain of watching him do this to himself. It must be really hard for you. I’m sorry I don’t have anything constructive to say. But I really do hope things turn out well.

[hja1407]

we finally found him at the local crack house and of course me being pissed off superwoman went in after him. I know I shouldn't have done it but at the time it was more constructive for me to go in there than to keep my anger to myself. Like I told him I already went to the pit of nothingness and am not going back. I told him that I love him more than anything in this world and that I wasn't ready to give up on him or our marriage. He told me tonight that he is scared and wants help. I told him if was serious then my hand was out and I would help him, but that he is the one who must truly want it. Because if he is not serious about it that it wouldn't work. I honestly can say that I have never been more scared that he was dead. Anyway the hand is out and we will see.

Anna and carchick and everyone else thanks for the support. It is really helpful at this moment to have people that understand and are here to give support.
Love to all
Heather

[roses]

i am going through the same ordeal i get my strenght tested every day i have hope but if he dont want it to get sober and clean then where does my hope lay? he has been in jail now for the weekend and i am going through withdrawls of him not being home and its tough, i am feeling as if i was in relapse iwth him the isolating depression and feeling spiritually exhausted. prayers is all there is left to do. keep strong and like i do i try to remeber my blessings everyday. roses