My Higher Power did something! (i think)

[skissors6]

My obsession with people who care about me gets so bad that i HAVE to talk to them everyday or i go crazy and deal with separation anxiety. The main person in my life right now who has to deal with this is my sponsor.
I literally have to hold myself back from calling her every minute of the day, because she has told me i need to stop bugging her while she is working. understandable. well, we had a talk the other day and she had to get to an appointment after work and she told me she'd talk to me later. I told her i really wanted to tell her about something cool that happened and asked her if she just wanted me to call her after i got out of my meeting and she said sure.
So, my obsession, through the whole meeting, I am just watching the clock, waiting to be able to call her. I even considered leaving the meeting early! Then, when it was finally over, i got talking to some people and the next thing i know, it's midnight, and i totally FORGOT to call her!!!
How does this happen? I don't forget to call her! She may forget to call me or be too busy, but i am never too busy to talk to her! I was in shock and amazement at what i had done! I don't FORGET to call people, especially someone as important in my life as my sponsor!
So, I looked at this situation, and how my obsession and attachment and dependence on people is one of my defects, and i figured that maybe my God did this. Maybe he made me forget to show me that i don't have to be so obsessive all the time and can get through a nite without talking to her and it will be ok.
i don't know. if anyone has any input on this. Maybe im just being too analytical...as usual!!!

thanks!
sorry so long!

-Skiss

[Chy]

I think this is your HP's way of helping you to realize that your dependence on your sponsor is not as necessary as it seems at all times. The people of the fellowship are there to. I think it's a good thing.

[skissors6]

thanks chy!

i think it is a good thing too, it just scared me! i am not used to being "normal" and not having these obsessive thoughts and behaviors.

But i really have been trying to look at the positive things lately.

thanks1

-Skiss

[51anna]

Hi Skiss,

I know what you mean about not being used to being 'normal'! I still am surprised sometimes by small things that have changed in my life since I stopped drinking. But, I think absolutely everything happens for a reason and that there are no coincidences in life. That doesn't mean you are over-analyzing, just learning and moving forward. Your were shown that, even though you thought you really, really needed to make that call, you got through it all by yourself. Way to go and keep moving forward on this great journey.

Love, Anna