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UrbanFool · 04-03-2005, 05:15 PM

Greetings, I'm new here. I've hit a bottom, but possibly not the last bottom. I'm waiting now to see if I lose my job. I spent 30 days sober, then 30 days in an in-patient recovery, then promptly went on a binge when I got home --er at work. I can't even begin to talk about how shamed I am. I haven't drank since, and I'm now in a 7 month out-patient program, but it might not even matter now. If I lose my job, I'll lose my house. I'm amazed I haven't lost my husband.

One day at a time I guess.

~Kelly

***Anna*** · 04-03-2005, 05:29 PM

Hi Kelly,

I'm glad you found us! It is amazing the shame we bring to ourselves with this addiction, isn't it? I hope you are able to keep your job and I'm glad that your husband is standing beside you. You can do this and we're here to help.

Love, Anna

HPierce · 04-03-2005, 05:34 PM

wow kelly!!! keep up at the site its truely supportive!!! there is a online meeting tonight also if you wish to join

its in about a hour! i'll pray for you! just start over. when that horse throws you off the wagon jump right back on and try again!!!!

Evanna · 04-04-2005, 07:20 AM

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Originally Posted by UrbanFool

I haven't drank since, and I'm now in a 7 month out-patient program, but it might not even matter now.
~Kelly

Hi Kelly and welcome. Every day sober matter's, it really does.

Paulie · 04-04-2005, 07:52 AM

Hi kelly -

We have been where you are, feeling guilt and shame over drinking/using. It gets us know where. You are alive, there is hope for recovery. Just for today, do not drink. Use the tools you are learning in these programs, reach out to others for support. And keep coming here, SR is a great place for support and friendship.

indigo · 04-04-2005, 08:09 AM

Welcome Kelly

hope you keep posting.

indigo

ButterflyChaser · 04-04-2005, 08:35 AM

Hello, all I can say is you came tot he right place & we are all here for you!!

KelKel · 04-04-2005, 08:55 AM

Hi Kelly

I feel for you, I know too well about the guilt and remorse of the aftermath of one of my many, many encounters with my addiction (alcohol).
The best thing we can do for ourselves is to try very hard to stay in the moment, stop beating ourselves up with memories of the past, worrying about the "what if's" of tomorrow.
I found that I needed the support and understanding of others who have my same affliction.
I think you will like it here. If you need anything just let me know.

namommy · 04-04-2005, 06:53 PM

Hi Kelly,
Welcome to SR and to WIR. You will find alot of love and support here.

04-03-2005, 05:15 PM	#1 (permalink)
UrbanFool Red Hot Chili Pepper Join Date: Apr 2005 Location: Jefferson --a State of Mind Posts: 153	New Here Greetings, I'm new here. I've hit a bottom, but possibly not the last bottom. I'm waiting now to see if I lose my job. I spent 30 days sober, then 30 days in an in-patient recovery, then promptly went on a binge when I got home --er at work. I can't even begin to talk about how shamed I am. I haven't drank since, and I'm now in a 7 month out-patient program, but it might not even matter now. If I lose my job, I'll lose my house. I'm amazed I haven't lost my husband. One day at a time I guess. ~Kelly

04-03-2005, 05:29 PM	#2 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 27,794	Hi Kelly, I'm glad you found us! It is amazing the shame we bring to ourselves with this addiction, isn't it? I hope you are able to keep your job and I'm glad that your husband is standing beside you. You can do this and we're here to help. Love, Anna __________________ Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Marianne Willianson

04-03-2005, 05:34 PM	#3 (permalink)
HPierce Meetings Coordinator Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Detroit, Michigan Posts: 374	wow kelly!!! keep up at the site its truely supportive!!! there is a online meeting tonight also if you wish to join its in about a hour! i'll pray for you! just start over. when that horse throws you off the wagon jump right back on and try again!!!! __________________ Alcoholism is the only disease that tries to convince you that you donâ€™t have it. If you wonder if youâ€™re an addict or alcoholic, you probably are.

04-04-2005, 07:52 AM	#5 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	Hi kelly - We have been where you are, feeling guilt and shame over drinking/using. It gets us know where. You are alive, there is hope for recovery. Just for today, do not drink. Use the tools you are learning in these programs, reach out to others for support. And keep coming here, SR is a great place for support and friendship. __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

04-04-2005, 08:09 AM	#6 (permalink)
indigo Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,928	Welcome Kelly hope you keep posting. indigo __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

04-04-2005, 08:35 AM	#7 (permalink)
ButterflyChaser Meow! Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Somewhere Over the Rainbow Posts: 1,019	Hello, all I can say is you came tot he right place & we are all here for you!! __________________ "If a Child feels Safe, Wanted & Loved, You are a Successful Parent!" ~~"A relationship is like sand in your hand. If held loosely in the palm of your hand it stays there, but as soon as you close your hand tightly it slips through your fingers!!~~

04-04-2005, 08:55 AM	#8 (permalink)
KelKel Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: The Mohave Desert Posts: 2,307	Hi Kelly I feel for you, I know too well about the guilt and remorse of the aftermath of one of my many, many encounters with my addiction (alcohol). The best thing we can do for ourselves is to try very hard to stay in the moment, stop beating ourselves up with memories of the past, worrying about the "what if's" of tomorrow. I found that I needed the support and understanding of others who have my same affliction. I think you will like it here. If you need anything just let me know.

04-04-2005, 06:53 PM	#9 (permalink)
namommy Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: Never, Never land Posts: 2,851 Blog Entries: 1	Hi Kelly, Welcome to SR and to WIR. You will find alot of love and support here. __________________ I came into this program to save my a** and found out it was attached to my soul. -- Anonymous

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