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liveweyerd · 03-04-2005, 05:24 PM

Very very busy, little time left for vacation, and so much to do, practical matters and such.
And needed honestly a little vacation from the boards....to just live life on life's terms for awhile.
Love you all,
live

Roxann · 03-04-2005, 05:28 PM

It's good to hear from you, glad you are doing well. Take care LW.

In memory of miracle · 03-04-2005, 05:44 PM

Hi Livie ! Good to see you about.Happy to hear you are doing well. Bless ,Trish

2stop · 03-06-2005, 10:59 AM

Good to hear from you!!!!!!!!!!(((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))

**historyteach** · 03-06-2005, 11:13 AM

Hey, Live;
We'll be here when your ready!!

Shalom!

Chy · 03-06-2005, 11:14 AM

(((Live)) glad you checked in!

ButterflyChaser · 03-07-2005, 09:06 AM

Paulie · 03-07-2005, 11:05 AM

(((Live)))

liveweyerd · 03-15-2005, 08:20 PM

thanks everybody, I'm still here and there. Just spent 5 days in Buenos Aires to get a new passport (mine was robbed) and straighten out related visa problems. Just got in from an 11 hour bus ride, so I am going to drink some chamomille tea and hit the sack.
love you all.
live

liveweyerd · 03-16-2005, 08:12 AM

Morning, I am a bit weary from the last few days, more coffee!!!

We are getting tight on money and planning our exit. My nasty landlord raised the rent 50% because Danny is here. Hopefully today we can purchase our airfare home and I can pay the rent. Plan to leave in one month.

We are scheming what and how to pack. Tomorrow I will go to the mail/customs and get info for mailing things back to the states. I worry about that. Last 3 letters I mailed never arrived but perhaps packages going through customs will be safer, also need to find out how expensive. If that is feasible, I will start mailing things out.

As always, I buy things to furnish my "house" and clothes. Typically I wind up giving boxes of clothes to the church. So we are starting to sort that out.

An overweight suitcase is expensive at the airport. I know. I brought too much with me coming here and have more now.

Will be going back to Florida to stay with Danny, then later to Indiana to watch my daughter graduate from junior college and retrieve my car. And hopefully get hired in Arkansas.

So, not here much, I am on the move.
If we can afford it, we will take a couple more day trips to sight see. Last chance, y'know.

Just cross your fingers on the mail thing. If that is reliable and cheap, I have got it made. But I have got about 60 dvd concerts and don't want them lost or stolen. etc.
Carry-on being one bag we will be dressed like bag ladies (and gentleman), wearing our leather hats, jewelry etc. Got to figure out how to get my fur chair home, am NOT giving that up! Will have to hacksaw the welds. Would like to mail it to my daughter. She is the keeper of my things from four different households.

I hope I can buy a house, humble, in the next five years and see if she will give me back my stuff! hahahahahahaha

love,
live

Paulie · 03-16-2005, 08:30 AM

(((Live)))

sorry for the passport trouble, but I bet you are still enjoying yourself.

Mailing things to other countries is a ridiculous amount of money. And yes, oversized stuff at the airport....is also outragious.

I hope it all works out for you and I am glad you are doing well and you and Danny are enjoying yourselfs.

liveweyerd · 03-17-2005, 12:58 PM

We are packing. Getting along well.

Today is one of those days when everytime I open my mouth I stick my foot down my throat. Except for what I said to you Paulie. I meant that with all my heart.

GettingFree · 03-17-2005, 05:37 PM

Hi Live,

I remember when I first joined SR, and how your courage of traveling to Argentina so inspired me. And your stories were wonderful to read. Thank you for sharing all this with us. I hope everything goes without incident getting back to the U.S.

best!
gf

liveweyerd · 03-17-2005, 05:49 PM

Thank you. I really did prove something to myself coming here!
Now, I am more scared of going home and back to the "real world"
I am having big time codie attacks.
My bf has been cooped up all day, I took a nap. He woke me to tell me he was going out to get sandwiches, he was starved and did I mind if he had a beer. The nut in my head says, one beer is not an emergency but I will leave him one day or another over this because I can't deal with it. Someone pops open a beer and my ex-trauma responses say get the hell out, now and quick. We are planning on sharing his home until I find my next project which will relocate me and in my heart I know that will be the end of us and all our plans. I loved our plans. I love him. I can't deal with the people, places, things. I just want to run away. His friends will stop by and they will share a couple of beers and I won't be able to handle it. I don't want to have to.
This is my deep dark secret of the moment. I see handwriting on the wall.

liveweyerd · 03-18-2005, 07:46 AM

I do believe it is the menopause that is making me so nutty. I am having periods twice as often and pms like I never had it before. All melancholy and weepy. I pity Danny having to be around me.

***indigo*** · 03-18-2005, 08:00 AM

My soul is weeping for you live.

indigo

liveweyerd · 03-18-2005, 02:00 PM

Aw, love, with the situations in your life.....I am just trying really hard right now to sweep my own side of the street.

GettingFree · 03-18-2005, 02:27 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by liveweyerd

I know that will be the end of us and all our plans. I loved our plans. I love him. I can't deal with the people, places, things. I just want to run away. His friends will stop by and they will share a couple of beers and I won't be able to handle it. I don't want to have to.
This is my deep dark secret of the moment. I see handwriting on the wall.

Hi Live,
One of the biggest challenges in my path of recovery is letting go of projecting into the future, and all the worry that comes with that. Learning to be here, today, this moment, without that worry, is a tall order. I'm getting better at it, and no question, the universe is doling up the perfect set of uncertainties to me to work on this. Right now, I know I love K and I know he loves me. Do I know if we will ever have a life together in the same place with permanence? Nope. May never happen. Or maybe it will. It certainly isn't in the near future. So I practice gratitude for today, and practice opening my eyes to the beauty in today. And try and train my mind in another direction when it slips into that fear-fret-and-worry mode.

Just wanted you to know you're not alone,

best
gf

liveweyerd · 03-19-2005, 07:08 AM

Thanks. I have really been on slippery slopes with the onslaught of menopause with a vengenance for the last two months.

In memory of miracle · 03-19-2005, 07:14 AM

((((( live ))))

Paulie · 03-19-2005, 10:41 AM

Live,

I don't envy where you are. I have been dealing with peri-menapause for at least the last year now, and that is enough to drive me nuts.

I also think that you need to stay in today and not trip on the future. You have been on a wonderful adventure, don't get all silly the last few weeks of it. Stay focused on enjoying yourself and getting the most out of it.

The 'real world' will be here when you get back, you will have to deal with it then because we have no choice

.

Love to you my dear friend. Enjoy yourself. And remember that you are an honest, kind, loving person. Tell your honey what you are going through, remember to share it with him (and us) for support.

Blessings to you Tena.

03-04-2005, 05:24 PM	#1 (permalink)
liveweyerd Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: central Florida Posts: 7,213 Blog Entries: 5	Just to say hi, I am okay Very very busy, little time left for vacation, and so much to do, practical matters and such. And needed honestly a little vacation from the boards....to just live life on life's terms for awhile. Love you all, live __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

03-04-2005, 05:28 PM	#2 (permalink)
Roxann Learning to love me. Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: on my way Posts: 628	It's good to hear from you, glad you are doing well. Take care LW. __________________ Roxann I'm struggling!!! roxstetzer@yahoo.com

03-04-2005, 05:44 PM	#3 (permalink)
In memory of miracle In Memory Of Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Connecticut. Posts: 3,740	Hi Livie ! Good to see you about.Happy to hear you are doing well. Bless ,Trish __________________ In Memory Of Teach only love...

03-06-2005, 10:59 AM	#4 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,666	Good to hear from you!!!!!!!!!!(((((((((((Hugs))))))))))) __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

03-06-2005, 11:13 AM	#5 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: centered again Posts: 8,007	Hey, Live; We'll be here when your ready!! Shalom! __________________

03-06-2005, 11:14 AM	#6 (permalink)
Chy Member Join Date: May 2003 Location: El Paso, Tx Posts: 5,886	(((Live)) glad you checked in!

03-07-2005, 09:06 AM	#7 (permalink)
ButterflyChaser Meow! Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Somewhere Over the Rainbow Posts: 1,023	__________________ "If a Child feels Safe, Wanted & Loved, You are a Successful Parent!" ~~"A relationship is like sand in your hand. If held loosely in the palm of your hand it stays there, but as soon as you close your hand tightly it slips through your fingers!!~~

03-07-2005, 11:05 AM	#8 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,518	(((Live))) __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

03-15-2005, 08:20 PM	#9 (permalink)
liveweyerd Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: central Florida Posts: 7,213 Blog Entries: 5	thanks everybody, I'm still here and there. Just spent 5 days in Buenos Aires to get a new passport (mine was robbed) and straighten out related visa problems. Just got in from an 11 hour bus ride, so I am going to drink some chamomille tea and hit the sack. love you all. live __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

03-16-2005, 08:12 AM	#10 (permalink)
liveweyerd Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: central Florida Posts: 7,213 Blog Entries: 5	Morning, I am a bit weary from the last few days, more coffee!!! We are getting tight on money and planning our exit. My nasty landlord raised the rent 50% because Danny is here. Hopefully today we can purchase our airfare home and I can pay the rent. Plan to leave in one month. We are scheming what and how to pack. Tomorrow I will go to the mail/customs and get info for mailing things back to the states. I worry about that. Last 3 letters I mailed never arrived but perhaps packages going through customs will be safer, also need to find out how expensive. If that is feasible, I will start mailing things out. As always, I buy things to furnish my "house" and clothes. Typically I wind up giving boxes of clothes to the church. So we are starting to sort that out. An overweight suitcase is expensive at the airport. I know. I brought too much with me coming here and have more now. Will be going back to Florida to stay with Danny, then later to Indiana to watch my daughter graduate from junior college and retrieve my car. And hopefully get hired in Arkansas. So, not here much, I am on the move. If we can afford it, we will take a couple more day trips to sight see. Last chance, y'know. Just cross your fingers on the mail thing. If that is reliable and cheap, I have got it made. But I have got about 60 dvd concerts and don't want them lost or stolen. etc. Carry-on being one bag we will be dressed like bag ladies (and gentleman), wearing our leather hats, jewelry etc. Got to figure out how to get my fur chair home, am NOT giving that up! Will have to hacksaw the welds. Would like to mail it to my daughter. She is the keeper of my things from four different households. I hope I can buy a house, humble, in the next five years and see if she will give me back my stuff! hahahahahahaha love, live __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

03-16-2005, 08:30 AM	#11 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,518	(((Live))) sorry for the passport trouble, but I bet you are still enjoying yourself. Mailing things to other countries is a ridiculous amount of money. And yes, oversized stuff at the airport....is also outragious. I hope it all works out for you and I am glad you are doing well and you and Danny are enjoying yourselfs. __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

03-17-2005, 12:58 PM	#12 (permalink)
liveweyerd Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: central Florida Posts: 7,213 Blog Entries: 5	We are packing. Getting along well. Today is one of those days when everytime I open my mouth I stick my foot down my throat. Except for what I said to you Paulie. I meant that with all my heart. __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

03-17-2005, 05:37 PM	#13 (permalink)
GettingFree Member Join Date: Aug 2004 Location: Canada Posts: 690	Hi Live, I remember when I first joined SR, and how your courage of traveling to Argentina so inspired me. And your stories were wonderful to read. Thank you for sharing all this with us. I hope everything goes without incident getting back to the U.S. best! gf

03-17-2005, 05:49 PM	#14 (permalink)
liveweyerd Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: central Florida Posts: 7,213 Blog Entries: 5	Thank you. I really did prove something to myself coming here! Now, I am more scared of going home and back to the "real world" I am having big time codie attacks. My bf has been cooped up all day, I took a nap. He woke me to tell me he was going out to get sandwiches, he was starved and did I mind if he had a beer. The nut in my head says, one beer is not an emergency but I will leave him one day or another over this because I can't deal with it. Someone pops open a beer and my ex-trauma responses say get the hell out, now and quick. We are planning on sharing his home until I find my next project which will relocate me and in my heart I know that will be the end of us and all our plans. I loved our plans. I love him. I can't deal with the people, places, things. I just want to run away. His friends will stop by and they will share a couple of beers and I won't be able to handle it. I don't want to have to. This is my deep dark secret of the moment. I see handwriting on the wall. __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

03-18-2005, 07:46 AM	#15 (permalink)
liveweyerd Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: central Florida Posts: 7,213 Blog Entries: 5	I do believe it is the menopause that is making me so nutty. I am having periods twice as often and pms like I never had it before. All melancholy and weepy. I pity Danny having to be around me. __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

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03-18-2005, 08:00 AM	#16 (permalink)
*indigo* Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,133	My soul is weeping for you live. indigo __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

03-18-2005, 02:00 PM	#17 (permalink)
liveweyerd Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: central Florida Posts: 7,213 Blog Entries: 5	Aw, love, with the situations in your life.....I am just trying really hard right now to sweep my own side of the street. __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

03-19-2005, 07:08 AM	#19 (permalink)
liveweyerd Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: central Florida Posts: 7,213 Blog Entries: 5	Thanks. I have really been on slippery slopes with the onslaught of menopause with a vengenance for the last two months. __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

03-19-2005, 07:14 AM	#20 (permalink)
In memory of miracle In Memory Of Join Date: Jan 2004 Location: Connecticut. Posts: 3,740	((((( live )))) __________________ In Memory Of Teach only love...

03-19-2005, 10:41 AM	#21 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,518	Live, I don't envy where you are. I have been dealing with peri-menapause for at least the last year now, and that is enough to drive me nuts. I also think that you need to stay in today and not trip on the future. You have been on a wonderful adventure, don't get all silly the last few weeks of it. Stay focused on enjoying yourself and getting the most out of it. The 'real world' will be here when you get back, you will have to deal with it then because we have no choice . Love to you my dear friend. Enjoy yourself. And remember that you are an honest, kind, loving person. Tell your honey what you are going through, remember to share it with him (and us) for support. Blessings to you Tena. __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

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