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sharebear2004 · 03-02-2005, 03:18 AM

Hey this is my first post on this board! I am Sharebear and I am in a methadone Clinic. I am in recovery with my soon to husband Glenn. We are getting clean from Heroin and so far it has been pretty easy for me at least. I started the clinic on 2/2/05 and I had all easy days the first couple weeks but last Friday and again on Sunday were the worst for me. Friday I didn't realize it but I was feeling for my vains and then Sunday Glenn had to sit on me and take a turban off of my arm and throw it away. Then he had to take the money and that was a first for Glenn!!! Glenn has used for the past 22 years and for the first time he is not thinking oh I am just fooling myself with getting clean but this time in the back of his mind he knows that he is finally done with all if the **** that goes with Heroin use! And he is not just my lover he is my soul mate we are so close I have not had anyone this close to me in my whole life!! And I actually am looking to spending the rest of my life with Glenn he has made my life such a happy one! I never before smiled or laughed or even go out! Now I love my life and I also would not be where I am today without Glenn and I am so proud of being able to say that!

clancy! · 03-03-2005, 05:41 AM

Hi sharebear, great to see you at SR! this is a great board, lots of love and wisdom for you to share. hope you enjoy it!!

hugs!

***indigo*** · 03-03-2005, 06:09 AM

Welcome sharebear, i'm with clancy it's good to meet you and i look forward to your posts.

indigo

Roxann · 03-03-2005, 07:25 AM

Hi Shari.

You are doing great honey. Just keep on keeping on.

sharebear2004 · 03-03-2005, 03:01 PM

Hey everyone today I was told that me and Glenn are the last 2 people they are going to take at the West Lebanon clinic! It is 63 miles one way and where we are is 90 Miles away so there is a big differance. We got to go to West Lebanon on Tuesday and it was so much closer and so much less time. And as soon as Glenn is off of assement and that will be any day now then they can finish all the paperwork for us to go. Wow I can't believe that I have been in the methadone clinic for a whole month! In this month I have only done under 2 bundles and most of that was used within the first 3 days of my dose being upped! And wow I feel so good.

lar · 03-05-2005, 08:40 PM

you are so strong sharebear. you sound happy, and i am so happy for you. in the future just feel your feelings, so you don't feel like doing substances. looking foward to your next post. oh- i like your name.
barb

sharebear2004 · 03-06-2005, 04:43 AM

Hey well Glenn is off of assement so West Lebanon is coming sooner then I thought! I can't wait to go there because I will be able to stay at my aunt's when the weather is ******! She lives 30 Minutes from the clinic! I went out last night for the first time since thanksgiving 2004! I went and played BINGO but was not that much fun but I went out of the house and I guess thats all that matters right? Not sure if I could do it again without Glenn! I never stopped thinking about him while I was gone! I kept saying I miss Glenn I should go home so I can see him but I stayed and never again Glenn must go with me!! I missed him that much! And it is weird because Glenn is the first guy I had issues being away from. Last night I was gone for not even 3 hours total and wow this is all new to me! But maybe thats why we are soul mates? I don't know what ever it is but it won't happen again!

roxybaby · 03-07-2005, 11:39 AM

Hey sharebear,
Im new to this as well, I just started my methadone treatment and am dying to talk to someone that can share their experiences with it. I got started on 15 ml (sorry, I was into oxycotin A LOT of them), and then got moved to 25 ml. I feel anxious but not too sick, maybe feverish and nauseated. I was wondering if the methadone caused you nausea in the begining? I am still white Knuckling the cravings, but only using a bit. Would going up help with any of these things? How did you feel with each dosage, and as they increased? I also suffer from borderline personality disorder, and mainly used the pills to aliviate my depression and anxiety. Im now feeling the yucky feelings of depression and anxiety again, Im wondering if this has to do with the low dosage Im on? Did you feel anything similar? Id appreciate any advice you have. Thanks

sharebear2004 · 03-07-2005, 05:56 PM

Roxy,
With methadone I found that I was so scared of being sick that I let my dose get too high. Not sure if you have followed my post's but my SOULMATE Glenn who see's what goes on with me was detoxing while I was getting at my stable dose so he too missed that I was not going through sickness just that I had shut-down and was in my bed for 2 months and thats why my knee's locked up. But anyway's I have alot of thought's and information that might help you but maybe it would be easier for us to talk on the phone about then because I have seen that much and with Glenn being into program's before and on methadone before I have learned alot about methadone! Like how to drop your dose without being sick and a whole bunch of stuff but send me a private message and I can eaither give you my number or I can call you it does not matter! My name is Shari and today is day 30 for being clean(methadone help)! But have not done this since I was 10 and I went from a gram a day not cut to useing only the first 3 days of being on methadone. And boy I feel great! Felt like **** when my dose was too high. But I will be waiting for a message from you k. BE COOL
SHAREBEAR

03-02-2005, 03:18 AM	#1 (permalink)
sharebear2004 You can do it!! Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: Townshend,Vermont Posts: 45	HELLO for the first time Hey this is my first post on this board! I am Sharebear and I am in a methadone Clinic. I am in recovery with my soon to husband Glenn. We are getting clean from Heroin and so far it has been pretty easy for me at least. I started the clinic on 2/2/05 and I had all easy days the first couple weeks but last Friday and again on Sunday were the worst for me. Friday I didn't realize it but I was feeling for my vains and then Sunday Glenn had to sit on me and take a turban off of my arm and throw it away. Then he had to take the money and that was a first for Glenn!!! Glenn has used for the past 22 years and for the first time he is not thinking oh I am just fooling myself with getting clean but this time in the back of his mind he knows that he is finally done with all if the **** that goes with Heroin use! And he is not just my lover he is my soul mate we are so close I have not had anyone this close to me in my whole life!! And I actually am looking to spending the rest of my life with Glenn he has made my life such a happy one! I never before smiled or laughed or even go out! Now I love my life and I also would not be where I am today without Glenn and I am so proud of being able to say that!

03-03-2005, 05:41 AM	#2 (permalink)
clancy! Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: LONDON UK Posts: 276	Hi sharebear, great to see you at SR! this is a great board, lots of love and wisdom for you to share. hope you enjoy it!! hugs! __________________ CARPE DIEM

03-03-2005, 06:09 AM	#3 (permalink)
*indigo* Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,133	Welcome sharebear, i'm with clancy it's good to meet you and i look forward to your posts. indigo __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

03-03-2005, 07:25 AM	#4 (permalink)
Roxann Learning to love me. Join Date: Jan 2005 Location: on my way Posts: 628	Hi Shari. You are doing great honey. Just keep on keeping on. __________________ Roxann I'm struggling!!! roxstetzer@yahoo.com

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03-03-2005, 03:01 PM	#5 (permalink)
sharebear2004 You can do it!! Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: Townshend,Vermont Posts: 45	Hey everyone today I was told that me and Glenn are the last 2 people they are going to take at the West Lebanon clinic! It is 63 miles one way and where we are is 90 Miles away so there is a big differance. We got to go to West Lebanon on Tuesday and it was so much closer and so much less time. And as soon as Glenn is off of assement and that will be any day now then they can finish all the paperwork for us to go. Wow I can't believe that I have been in the methadone clinic for a whole month! In this month I have only done under 2 bundles and most of that was used within the first 3 days of my dose being upped! And wow I feel so good.

03-05-2005, 08:40 PM	#6 (permalink)
lar Member Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: s.sierra nevada mtns. Posts: 21	you are so strong sharebear. you sound happy, and i am so happy for you. in the future just feel your feelings, so you don't feel like doing substances. looking foward to your next post. oh- i like your name. barb

03-06-2005, 04:43 AM	#7 (permalink)
sharebear2004 You can do it!! Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: Townshend,Vermont Posts: 45	Hey well Glenn is off of assement so West Lebanon is coming sooner then I thought! I can't wait to go there because I will be able to stay at my aunt's when the weather is ******! She lives 30 Minutes from the clinic! I went out last night for the first time since thanksgiving 2004! I went and played BINGO but was not that much fun but I went out of the house and I guess thats all that matters right? Not sure if I could do it again without Glenn! I never stopped thinking about him while I was gone! I kept saying I miss Glenn I should go home so I can see him but I stayed and never again Glenn must go with me!! I missed him that much! And it is weird because Glenn is the first guy I had issues being away from. Last night I was gone for not even 3 hours total and wow this is all new to me! But maybe thats why we are soul mates? I don't know what ever it is but it won't happen again!

03-07-2005, 11:39 AM	#8 (permalink)
roxybaby Member Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: guelph, ON Posts: 8	Hey sharebear, Im new to this as well, I just started my methadone treatment and am dying to talk to someone that can share their experiences with it. I got started on 15 ml (sorry, I was into oxycotin A LOT of them), and then got moved to 25 ml. I feel anxious but not too sick, maybe feverish and nauseated. I was wondering if the methadone caused you nausea in the begining? I am still white Knuckling the cravings, but only using a bit. Would going up help with any of these things? How did you feel with each dosage, and as they increased? I also suffer from borderline personality disorder, and mainly used the pills to aliviate my depression and anxiety. Im now feeling the yucky feelings of depression and anxiety again, Im wondering if this has to do with the low dosage Im on? Did you feel anything similar? Id appreciate any advice you have. Thanks

03-07-2005, 05:56 PM	#9 (permalink)
sharebear2004 You can do it!! Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: Townshend,Vermont Posts: 45	Roxy, With methadone I found that I was so scared of being sick that I let my dose get too high. Not sure if you have followed my post's but my SOULMATE Glenn who see's what goes on with me was detoxing while I was getting at my stable dose so he too missed that I was not going through sickness just that I had shut-down and was in my bed for 2 months and thats why my knee's locked up. But anyway's I have alot of thought's and information that might help you but maybe it would be easier for us to talk on the phone about then because I have seen that much and with Glenn being into program's before and on methadone before I have learned alot about methadone! Like how to drop your dose without being sick and a whole bunch of stuff but send me a private message and I can eaither give you my number or I can call you it does not matter! My name is Shari and today is day 30 for being clean(methadone help)! But have not done this since I was 10 and I went from a gram a day not cut to useing only the first 3 days of being on methadone. And boy I feel great! Felt like **** when my dose was too high. But I will be waiting for a message from you k. BE COOL SHAREBEAR

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