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bubblze30 · 01-13-2005, 01:11 PM

I have been really down lately medication not working. Not wanting to do meeting and sleeping not cleaning my home or myself properlly. I am stuck in depression so bad. Then out of no where I get a call from an old using buddy asking if I wanted to hang out this weekend which I plan on not doing I am not throwing away everything I have gained since I stopped hanging with this person. Then at one in the morning I get a call from an old best friend since I was eleven or twenlve. She was slurring her words and drinking and taking pills and smoking weed. She knows I am clean and I told her thats just not where I am but she just kept on to where I didn't want to hurt her feelings hanging up but she just didn't catch on that I can't be around that kinda of stuff. Why me why now when I am at a rough time in my life do the old using buddies come out of the woodwork wanting to see me. I won't see either one of them but why why when it rains it pours. Thanks to sober recovery I can come in here and get this stuff out of my system and move on. I have a doctors appointment on Wendsday so I am praying my medication will be regulated and I will be feeling better. I wish they called on different cirrcumstanses like not using not wanting to hang out drinking but maybe just hang out. They don't do that though. So that is not an option....

***Anna*** · 01-13-2005, 03:18 PM

Hi Bubblze,

It does seem that things like that come alone to test us when we least need them. I wonder why it seems to be like that too and maybe it's because we haven't learned as much as we need to yet about what we are going through. I'm not sure but sometimes it really does test us!

Good for you staying strong and I wish your friends had called for different reasons too.

Love, Anna

LADYANGOLA · 01-13-2005, 03:41 PM

I Look At Your Pic..w/your Daughter...how Cute...well You Stay Tough...i Know ..what Is That Saying "when It Rains It Pours"....just Remember You Have Worked Toooo Hard To Throw It Away..and The Best Thing For The Recovery Blues...exercise....pull Yourself Out Of Bed..and Take A Walk Sounds Sooo Simple But It Helps..you Will Notice How Beautiful This World Is Sober..and Your Daughter She Needs You...i Know When I Fall In A Funk Like That..just Want To Sit...i Have To Remember ..every Hour That Passes That I Don't Do Something..(positive) I Have Lost..and Believe Me I Lost Alot Drunk...i Refuse To Lose Them Sober...hang In There..you Are Stronger Than You Even Know...and Next Time..tell Your Friend You Don't Drink Anymore End Of Story...be Proud Of It...and If They Call You Drunk...just Say...sorry Call Me Back When You Are Sober...honey If There Is One Thing I Am Sure Of Is Our Kids Deserve Sober Parents..no Ifs Buts About It...we May Not Be Perfect..(who Is)..but We Can Be Sober....you Are Doing Great...tommorrow Get Uop ..take That Walk...do It..you Will Feel Better...what Have You Got To Lose...v

bubblze30 · 01-14-2005, 12:37 PM

I will give it a shot lady thanks.

boop64132 · 01-14-2005, 02:33 PM

bubblze,
It never fails.There ia always an old buddy,or an obsticle for us.
Just keep the faith! You are being tempted!
Dont give up,and dont give in!

Think of something really nice that makes you smile.Thats what I do when Im down.
And somehow it always works.

(((HUGS)))

spirit · 01-14-2005, 02:45 PM

hi bubblze, maybe cause you are feeling a bit down, their reappearance feels bigger than it is, it is just coincidence.

remember how you felt when you had to deal with your friend on the phone, telling her you are different etc, i bet you were so glad you werent in her space hey.

remember that, and hey congrats on your 12 months, way to go mate
kath

Little Missy · 01-14-2005, 04:56 PM

Hugs to you bubblez!! I hope you feel better soon.

Good for you on standing your ground. Some people just don't understand how important soberity is to us.

I too fall into depressive slumps. I know it's hard to pull yourself up, but give it a try. Maybe take your daughter to the mall and walk there. Good quality time.

Love and Hugs,
Missy

LADYANGOLA · 01-14-2005, 05:12 PM

Bubblez|||i Am Praying For You...you Have The Stength..within Or You Never Would Have Made It This Far...plz..hang On To That Tight...hang On For Your Life...and Your Baby"s....v(of Corse She Doesn't Think She's A Baby...but She's Your Baby)lol

wastedtime4me · 01-14-2005, 05:51 PM

{{{{{{{{{{{{{bubblze}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
You have been there for me more times than i can count when i needed a friend~
I am not always good with words however if you need me you know where to find me and i will do my best to help you in anyway that i can~
I sent you an email my friend~
{{{{{{{{[bighugs}}}}}}}}}}
brighter days are comin for both of us~

Live · 01-14-2005, 11:02 PM

Bubblze,

I am sorry you are feeling down, but you have taken the steps and are seeing your Doctor. And you didn't go with the people, places, things.
Take it easy!

hugs,
live

nodope · 01-15-2005, 02:06 PM

Bubblze,

Was thinking about you too. I'm hoping you are feeling a little better.

Just that picture of you, and your little girl keeps me going. Honestly. Too bad your friends are still out there. It is hard with childhood friends especially. You did the right thing. Please, feel better.

Evanna · 01-16-2005, 09:22 AM

((((It is bloody hard sometimes Bubblze)))).

Best Wishes
Evanna.

Cap3 · 01-16-2005, 09:48 AM

Temptation came calling and you stoped it.Way to go.Ya just never know,why they are getting in contact with you now.Your an example to them on how it works!!!!They know you are clean and yet they call?maybe they are testing to see if recovery could work out for them too?Ya just never know....

indigo · 01-16-2005, 10:17 AM

Take care of yourself B you are strong you can make it I will keep you in my prayers.
hugs indigo

bubblze30 · 01-20-2005, 10:21 AM

Wow I can't believe the support in here. You are all very amazing caring and loving ladies and I thank you for you support. I am doing much better I went to the doctors as I wrote in another thread so I am on the road to recovery I pray. I did get another call and I actually faked ill not to go out for a few drinks with my old friend. The next day I fessed up and told her I can't drink if I drink I will wind up using eventually I know me and that is not what I want. She was busy and has not returned my call but I did cll her its all I could do. Thanks again ladies I am out of bed and feeling a bit better.

01-13-2005, 01:11 PM	#1 (permalink)
bubblze30 Member Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: mass Posts: 1,355	why now I have been really down lately medication not working. Not wanting to do meeting and sleeping not cleaning my home or myself properlly. I am stuck in depression so bad. Then out of no where I get a call from an old using buddy asking if I wanted to hang out this weekend which I plan on not doing I am not throwing away everything I have gained since I stopped hanging with this person. Then at one in the morning I get a call from an old best friend since I was eleven or twenlve. She was slurring her words and drinking and taking pills and smoking weed. She knows I am clean and I told her thats just not where I am but she just kept on to where I didn't want to hurt her feelings hanging up but she just didn't catch on that I can't be around that kinda of stuff. Why me why now when I am at a rough time in my life do the old using buddies come out of the woodwork wanting to see me. I won't see either one of them but why why when it rains it pours. Thanks to sober recovery I can come in here and get this stuff out of my system and move on. I have a doctors appointment on Wendsday so I am praying my medication will be regulated and I will be feeling better. I wish they called on different cirrcumstanses like not using not wanting to hang out drinking but maybe just hang out. They don't do that though. So that is not an option.... __________________ "What don't kill us. Will make us stronger"

01-13-2005, 03:18 PM	#2 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,817	Hi Bubblze, It does seem that things like that come alone to test us when we least need them. I wonder why it seems to be like that too and maybe it's because we haven't learned as much as we need to yet about what we are going through. I'm not sure but sometimes it really does test us! Good for you staying strong and I wish your friends had called for different reasons too. Love, Anna __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

01-14-2005, 12:37 PM	#4 (permalink)
bubblze30 Member Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: mass Posts: 1,355	I will give it a shot lady thanks. __________________ "What don't kill us. Will make us stronger"

01-14-2005, 02:45 PM	#6 (permalink)
spirit spirit Join Date: Sep 2003 Location: perth,western australia Posts: 1,460	hi bubblze, maybe cause you are feeling a bit down, their reappearance feels bigger than it is, it is just coincidence. remember how you felt when you had to deal with your friend on the phone, telling her you are different etc, i bet you were so glad you werent in her space hey. remember that, and hey congrats on your 12 months, way to go mate kath __________________ spirit still here

01-14-2005, 04:56 PM	#7 (permalink)
Little Missy NOT EVEN 1 CLUB!! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: When I find myself, I'll let you know! Posts: 1,835	Hugs to you bubblez!! I hope you feel better soon. Good for you on standing your ground. Some people just don't understand how important soberity is to us. I too fall into depressive slumps. I know it's hard to pull yourself up, but give it a try. Maybe take your daughter to the mall and walk there. Good quality time. Love and Hugs, Missy __________________ May all your days be filled with love and laughter!

01-13-2005, 03:41 PM	#3 (permalink)
LADYANGOLA Member Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: UPSTATE NY Posts: 57	I Look At Your Pic..w/your Daughter...how Cute...well You Stay Tough...i Know ..what Is That Saying "when It Rains It Pours"....just Remember You Have Worked Toooo Hard To Throw It Away..and The Best Thing For The Recovery Blues...exercise....pull Yourself Out Of Bed..and Take A Walk Sounds Sooo Simple But It Helps..you Will Notice How Beautiful This World Is Sober..and Your Daughter She Needs You...i Know When I Fall In A Funk Like That..just Want To Sit...i Have To Remember ..every Hour That Passes That I Don't Do Something..(positive) I Have Lost..and Believe Me I Lost Alot Drunk...i Refuse To Lose Them Sober...hang In There..you Are Stronger Than You Even Know...and Next Time..tell Your Friend You Don't Drink Anymore End Of Story...be Proud Of It...and If They Call You Drunk...just Say...sorry Call Me Back When You Are Sober...honey If There Is One Thing I Am Sure Of Is Our Kids Deserve Sober Parents..no Ifs Buts About It...we May Not Be Perfect..(who Is)..but We Can Be Sober....you Are Doing Great...tommorrow Get Uop ..take That Walk...do It..you Will Feel Better...what Have You Got To Lose...v

01-14-2005, 02:33 PM	#5 (permalink)
boop64132 Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Kansas City,Mo Posts: 478	bubblze, It never fails.There ia always an old buddy,or an obsticle for us. Just keep the faith! You are being tempted! Dont give up,and dont give in! Think of something really nice that makes you smile.Thats what I do when Im down. And somehow it always works. (((HUGS)))

01-14-2005, 05:12 PM	#8 (permalink)
LADYANGOLA Member Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: UPSTATE NY Posts: 57	Bubblez\|\|\|i Am Praying For You...you Have The Stength..within Or You Never Would Have Made It This Far...plz..hang On To That Tight...hang On For Your Life...and Your Baby"s....v(of Corse She Doesn't Think She's A Baby...but She's Your Baby)lol

01-14-2005, 05:51 PM	#9 (permalink)
wastedtime4me ~FEELS SO ALIVE~ Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: In A sTaTe Of HaPPiNeSS Posts: 637	{{{{{{{{{{{{{bubblze}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} You have been there for me more times than i can count when i needed a friend~ I am not always good with words however if you need me you know where to find me and i will do my best to help you in anyway that i can~ I sent you an email my friend~ {{{{{{{{[bighugs}}}}}}}}}} brighter days are comin for both of us~ __________________ ~WaStEdTiMe4Me~

01-14-2005, 11:02 PM	#10 (permalink)
Live Member Join Date: Nov 2002 Location: Bristol TN/VA Posts: 11,306 Blog Entries: 5	Bubblze, I am sorry you are feeling down, but you have taken the steps and are seeing your Doctor. And you didn't go with the people, places, things. Take it easy! hugs, live __________________ Each small candle lights a corner of the dark....Roger Waters

01-15-2005, 02:06 PM	#11 (permalink)
nodope Member Join Date: Dec 2004 Location: Big City East Coast Posts: 118	Bubblze, Was thinking about you too. I'm hoping you are feeling a little better. Just that picture of you, and your little girl keeps me going. Honestly. Too bad your friends are still out there. It is hard with childhood friends especially. You did the right thing. Please, feel better.

01-16-2005, 09:22 AM	#12 (permalink)
Evanna Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: Our house. Posts: 816	((((It is bloody hard sometimes Bubblze)))). Best Wishes Evanna.

01-16-2005, 09:48 AM	#13 (permalink)
Cap3 Member Join Date: Jul 2002 Location: Canada Posts: 727	Temptation came calling and you stoped it.Way to go.Ya just never know,why they are getting in contact with you now.Your an example to them on how it works!!!!They know you are clean and yet they call?maybe they are testing to see if recovery could work out for them too?Ya just never know....

01-16-2005, 10:17 AM	#14 (permalink)
indigo Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,928	Take care of yourself B you are strong you can make it I will keep you in my prayers. hugs indigo __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

01-20-2005, 10:21 AM	#15 (permalink)
bubblze30 Member Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: mass Posts: 1,355	Wow I can't believe the support in here. You are all very amazing caring and loving ladies and I thank you for you support. I am doing much better I went to the doctors as I wrote in another thread so I am on the road to recovery I pray. I did get another call and I actually faked ill not to go out for a few drinks with my old friend. The next day I fessed up and told her I can't drink if I drink I will wind up using eventually I know me and that is not what I want. She was busy and has not returned my call but I did cll her its all I could do. Thanks again ladies I am out of bed and feeling a bit better. __________________ "What don't kill us. Will make us stronger"

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