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[wastedtime4me]

Hi girls
I have'nt been in the best of holiday spirits here.SO i just havnet been posting..
I do hope everyone had a good christmas and new years..
I drop in every so often to read a few posts but just havent had the energy to reply..
I went to apply for social security disabilty on the 27 of dec and was told i didnt have enough work credits and hubby makes just over the allowed amount.So no help for us~
It was my last resort for some help.I just dont know what i am gonna do now..My babysittin job is gone also..Nephew got laid off..Im not sure when he will go back to work even~So life has just turned upside down here for me/us~Finding a sitdown job that pays decent with no education would be a true miracle at this point~I have done telemarketing before..If you dont make sells they can you ...real quick~I have to pull my head outta my a** real soon here and figure out somethin or else we are gonna lose our home.Then my son comes to me and says he wants to move out..He has a few more months till he is 18..I hate to see him go..I was completely suicidial actually a couple of days ago over all this.I just felt like it was all too much to bear.I tried to stay as busy as my body would allow me today ..I know that nobody can get me outta this but me~My hubby asked me yesterday what was wrong..oh i dont know..pick a topic..and make sure its ones that wont keep you from your online game too long~Thats what i said too.he hadnt even noticed that the day before i stayed in bed crying for hours~.So today he has stayed offline a bit and helped me...He even talked with me some more last nite.I have been trying real hard today to get my head back on straight..It is sooooooo hard~Everyday lately i wake up and wonder why i am still here...So today i told myself you have 2 kids that need you ..thats why your still here!!!!!!!!!!One of them acts like he doesnt need me but i know he does~Someday he will realize that!!!! I tried to pop a pill and ignore the dreadfull burning in my neck/shoulders that keeps me in that damn recliner and away from living life like i used to!!!! Tonite i am paying the price...I am gonna beg the next doctor i go see for a shot of some nerve blocking med..I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I have to go to work!!!!!!!!! I feel like i am dying a slow death here!!!!!!! Either get it over with already or somebody please help me!!!!!!!!!!! Ok now i am getting myself all worked up again...Anyway this is why i havent been around to post..I am all messed up ..AGAIN!!!!!!!
Send some prayers my way girls..Thanks

[51anna]

Oh Wasted, I'm sending lots of prayers your way. I'm sorry things are going badly for you now.

First of all, you're right about your kids needing you. They do, and the almost 18 year old son needs you too and will need you in the future. My kids are 28 and 24 and they like to know that Mom's there for them. Trust me, I felt like you do when my kids moved out, but just be there for them and they'll love you for it.

I have some experience with the burning neck/shoulder pain and I found it really hard to find a solution too. I think a combination of things has helped. I needed muscle relaxants for a few weeks to undo the tightness. Have you tried muscle relaxants? Also, I had to change my lifestyle. I was working full-time and had to change to part-time and that has made a big difference in the stress level in my life. The beta-blocking you are talking about might work well and I know that botox injections are also used. Do you have access to a pain clinic or a dr who specializes in pain?

Anyways, don't give up Wasted. I know it's tough but try to believe you'll feel better. I'm sending lots of prayers your way.

Love, Anna

[liveweyerd]

What about vocational rehab?

[namommy]

((((((((wt4m))))))))

[Paulie]

Hugs from me too.

[bubblze30]

I was told I diod not have enough credits as well and I went for it any ways and got it. I don't know how many but lots I know of have been told the same and have it now. Please don't give up Hang in there and it will be ok I know you are in a really tough space. Everything happens for a reason and I don't think god wants you to lose your home. I hope to God something falls into place for you and soon. My prayers are with you. So Sorry to hear of you problems. When it rains it freeken pours.