Pregnant Addict

[LeeCee]

Hello Folks,

Tomorrow I will enter treatment for the second time this year for my pill popping, self-will run riot. This time, however, I am pregnant.

I guess I just want to hear from someone who has also entered sobriety while pregnant and am looking for some encouragement that my baby will be ok.

Not that my useage is of importance, but I guess it might help to know what/how much for the purposes of the health of the baby . . . . . . for the first 5 weeks of pregnancy I was HEAVILY abusing narcotic pain relief (10mg hydro, Norco, about 20 pills a day) and hypnotics (ambien/sonata - about 20 10mg pills a day). Weeks 6-8 I have gotten myself to only hydro (6-8 10mg hydro a day and haven't touched the hypnotics in 2 weeks). I am about to enter week 9 and going to a facility tomorrow.

Hope to hear from someone.

Thnx!
Lisa

[bubblze30]

I am not a physician but, I am sure that the hypnotic medications would be worse on the child then the pain medications. I have seen many women on methodone have healthy babies who need mild detox. I will pray for the safety of your child. As for myself I used at the end of my pregnacy The best thing you can do for your child is to stop using but you also should be observed by a physician for medical reasons. It's good you are getting into treatment just remember there are alot of rules and it is not always the easiest thing to do. Try to remember who and why you are doing this for and you will be alright. Once you look into that babies face it will be alot easier to stay clean. Although for me that is when my addiction progressed out of control. I lost my daughter when she was a yr and five months. Thankfully I got her back but not before I overdosed and almost killed myself and ran with drugs for another yr and a half. Today I got her back in my life and I have over three yrs in recovery. My daughter is nine years old beautiful and healthy. I had one relapse in the last seven years and I plan on staying in recovery. There is nothing left out there for me to do I have done jails institutions and death and don't like any of them. Overdoses and being reviived just to use again. So if you ever think you miss the life or want to try a different drug let me tell you I did it all for you all ready and they all bring you to the samer three places. Jails Institutions and death so please stay clean for your unborn child and yourself. This is not meant to scare you or hurt you just a little bit about me to let you know you are not alone. I used to. I did before I knew I was pregneant then stopped and did in the end of my pregnancy. You are not alone but you also don't ever have to use again as long as you just say no and follow the simple program the way it says to follow it.

[splendra]

(((((Lisa)))))

I don't know what effect your drug use may have on your baby. But, I do admire your desire to quit. I know that the body will work to protect the unborn from toxins I hope for yours and the baby's sake that there is protection. I know several people who have used while pregnant and had healthy normal babies. I will remember you in my prayers tonight.....

[namommy]

Lisa,

Hi, I just wanted to share my experience with you. I have 4 children, and I used throughout my pregnancies with the 3 oldest. I was clean throughout with my youngest. Fortunately, all of my children are healthy. Because of my using, they did alot of testing on my son to try to find something in his system so they could take him away from me, but his urine and blood came up clean. I believe only by the grace of God. It is not too late. Get into treatment and take care of yourself and that baby. You don't have to feel the same fear I did when I had my kids. You have a chance to make things right starting now.

[jenniferaz1980]

(((((LISA))))))

I comend you for taking the scary step of rehab. I will definatly keep you and your baby in my Prayers and the best of luck!

[LeeCee]

Thank you ladies for the kind words. I am packing my bags tonight and will drive 3 hours to the center tomorrow morning (gosh I miss NYC, things are so far away around here!) I already know what I am in for, since I've been there before. Withdrawl from opiates stinks, but that's not even what I am worried about. . . . .it's STAYING clean that concerns me more.

This time, I am completely surrendering . . . . . . . last time in treatment I thought I was too good or too smart for the program and look where that got me! I am no better than anyone else! I thought I was too pretty, too rich, too prestigious of a citzen, blah blah blah. I go in this time, with only one thought on my mind, I am sick and I need help. I am an addict and I will be for the rest of my life and this disease does not give a darn what I wear, who I know, or how much money I make! Gosh, at least I have this advantage of knowing this, this time.

I think they are going to laugh at me coming in with my highlighted AA and NA books, my assignments and journals from the last rehab and my obviously well read copy of Just for Today. Sometimes, you gotta laugh or you will cry.

[Paulie]

Originally Posted by LeeCee

Sometimes, you gotta laugh or you will cry.

Thinking of you this morning.

[LeeCee]

Thank you all for being so warm. I had a problem with the Dr. giving me a referral this morning (he needs to authorize my treatment in order for insurance to cover it because I've already had one round of treatment in the past 365 days). The admissions professional at the center is trying to contact my insurance directly to see if she can at least get me covered for detox. Now I am in this holding pattern. I am so sick of this TriCare, has anybody else ever tried to get treatment with TriCare? They are so cheap!
Anyway, I'll be around for a little longer, it seems. Just taking enough meds to stave off the withdrawals. I am almost taking the med as directed (one more pill a day than allowed by prescription).
I feel so awful leaving my husband on Thanksgiving . . . . . we are military and don't have any family down here and I don't want him to tell any of our AF friends where I am so he has to isolate tomorrow pretending he and I are having dinner together alone at our house. He can't tell them I went on vacation or anything because what will they think, I left my husband alone on Thanksgiving! These people would never understand, they leave in such a different world. If any of them knew I was so much as smoking cigarrettes while pregnant they would flip, nevermind the drug use!

Hope you all have a great Thanksgiving and bless you for listening to me.

Warmest Regards,
Lee

[namommy]

You hang in there, and get the help you need.

As far as your friends, I am sorry, but F*** what they think. You are trying to save your a$$ not your face.