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ButterflyChaser · 10-20-2004, 11:53 AM

I see you in here Tammie/2stop!!! How r u? Miss you, just wanted you to know!

Don't be such a stranger! Okay?

2stop · 10-20-2004, 12:00 PM

(((((((((((Hugs All))))))))))

Miss you too my friend.

Am doing well. Busier than ever now. Have a new memeber of the fa,ily..An 8 month old German Shepherd. She is something..but so beautiful. I am in love.

Have had a huge strugle with my panic disorder these past few months..but am coming out of it now. The dark before the dawn I believe it was.....I am truly learning the one day at a time thing with the agoraphobia..was so scared for awhile that I had beat a 20 yr addiction only to be taken down by the panic attacks. It is getting better. Training my new dog is a great help...helps reinforce the process idea...can't have immediate results with everything and looking for it is only an addictive trait IMO anyways...so each day I do what I can and let the rest fall where it may.... very releasing when I think that way. Let's go of so much tension. I think tension is what used to drive me though...LOL..sometimes it is weird being calm and in control of my faculties...but I much prefer it to my old way of being.

Well, hope you are well my friend. I think of you and the others every day. HUgs and prayers coming your way.

Paulie · 10-20-2004, 12:07 PM

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Originally Posted by 2stop

can't have immediate results with everything and looking for it is only an addictive trait IMO anyways...so each day I do what I can and let the rest fall where it may.... very releasing when I think that way.

I totally agree!

Nice to see you!

ButterflyChaser · 10-20-2004, 12:08 PM

Well it's GREAT to hear from you!! I am glad things are going well for you! and I'm SO soooo happy bout your new member of your family! What is her name? ya know something funny is my daughter wants a german shepard! lol she really does. I bet your dog is helping you in many ways than you could imagine!! Animals are heaven sent!! Glad to hear from you!!(((((2stop))))))

***Anna*** · 10-20-2004, 02:42 PM

Hi Tammy,

I'm so glad to hear you're doing fine. And, there's nothing like a pet, especially a beautiful German Shepherd puppy to keep you on track.

Love, Anna

indigo · 10-21-2004, 04:06 AM

Hey I would like to add that I too am very happy to see you posting I am sending positive thoughts to quell the panic I will light a candle too.
Love indigo

2stop · 10-21-2004, 08:39 AM

Thanks for all the kind words and positive encouragement. It was all of you that helpd me and supported me in getting this far. I would have never dreamt it possible to be sober and free..but how grateful I am to be so.

if I could ask for some prayers about something I would so appreciate it. I don't know if you all remember but I have an ex femme fatale girlfriend in TX that caused some serious pain and serious trouble in my life, very dangerous behaviours. Anyways...my brother in law gave her my home number...again..and last week when I was down sick with the flu she called and was talking to my daughter...my son came and told me. Her and her daughter have carried on before about how they want to take my daughter to Houston, and it does scare me. She has a sick attraction to me...told my daughter she loved me...said her daughter was pregnant....said the fathers name was..coincidentally I don't know but said my husbands name...that bothers me not because I think my hubby cheated..but because when she was 15 she had a crush on my husband and caused some real trouble...Oh man. I am going to have the number changed but am just worried she may try and come up here one day...she used to always to tell me how I was her drug..she couldn't make it without me...but the last year I was around her she and her daughter lived in my home and the tricks she pulled were nothing short of insane. She is with a dope dealer/prison snitch that is always being followed and used by the DEA....just not people you want around ya know? I wish I could help people like that..but I can't...and I just want it to go away. She is a stranger to me now..but obviously she is obsessed with me.

Anyways, sorry to go on and on about this. Just needed to get it out, off my chest and out of my head. I know it will all work out, just sometimes you want to forget..and hope the other person will too.

Have a great day you all. ASm busy writing and working with my new dog....she is quite the strong willed one! LOL..I think I have finally met my match!

Love ya all...........((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))) )

Paulie · 10-21-2004, 09:12 AM

Sorry you have to go through that. Hopefully she doesn't have your address. change the number and pray.

New animals - love them!

10-20-2004, 11:53 AM	#1 (permalink)
ButterflyChaser Meow! Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Somewhere Over the Rainbow Posts: 1,020	2stop?? I see you in here Tammie/2stop!!! How r u? Miss you, just wanted you to know! Don't be such a stranger! Okay? __________________ "If a Child feels Safe, Wanted & Loved, You are a Successful Parent!" ~~"A relationship is like sand in your hand. If held loosely in the palm of your hand it stays there, but as soon as you close your hand tightly it slips through your fingers!!~~

10-20-2004, 12:00 PM	#2 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,794	(((((((((((Hugs All)))))))))) Miss you too my friend. Am doing well. Busier than ever now. Have a new memeber of the fa,ily..An 8 month old German Shepherd. She is something..but so beautiful. I am in love. Have had a huge strugle with my panic disorder these past few months..but am coming out of it now. The dark before the dawn I believe it was.....I am truly learning the one day at a time thing with the agoraphobia..was so scared for awhile that I had beat a 20 yr addiction only to be taken down by the panic attacks. It is getting better. Training my new dog is a great help...helps reinforce the process idea...can't have immediate results with everything and looking for it is only an addictive trait IMO anyways...so each day I do what I can and let the rest fall where it may.... very releasing when I think that way. Let's go of so much tension. I think tension is what used to drive me though...LOL..sometimes it is weird being calm and in control of my faculties...but I much prefer it to my old way of being. Well, hope you are well my friend. I think of you and the others every day. HUgs and prayers coming your way. __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

10-20-2004, 12:08 PM	#4 (permalink)
ButterflyChaser Meow! Join Date: Mar 2003 Location: Somewhere Over the Rainbow Posts: 1,020	Well it's GREAT to hear from you!! I am glad things are going well for you! and I'm SO soooo happy bout your new member of your family! What is her name? ya know something funny is my daughter wants a german shepard! lol she really does. I bet your dog is helping you in many ways than you could imagine!! Animals are heaven sent!! Glad to hear from you!!(((((2stop)))))) __________________ "If a Child feels Safe, Wanted & Loved, You are a Successful Parent!" ~~"A relationship is like sand in your hand. If held loosely in the palm of your hand it stays there, but as soon as you close your hand tightly it slips through your fingers!!~~

10-20-2004, 02:42 PM	#5 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,813	Hi Tammy, I'm so glad to hear you're doing fine. And, there's nothing like a pet, especially a beautiful German Shepherd puppy to keep you on track. Love, Anna __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

10-21-2004, 04:06 AM	#6 (permalink)
indigo Community Greeter Join Date: Nov 2003 Location: Mid-Life Express Posts: 9,928	Hey I would like to add that I too am very happy to see you posting I am sending positive thoughts to quell the panic I will light a candle too. Love indigo __________________ When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself." Namasté

10-21-2004, 08:39 AM	#7 (permalink)
2stop ~Author of My Life~ Join Date: May 2003 Location: Doing what I thought I couldn't.... Posts: 4,794	Thanks for all the kind words and positive encouragement. It was all of you that helpd me and supported me in getting this far. I would have never dreamt it possible to be sober and free..but how grateful I am to be so. if I could ask for some prayers about something I would so appreciate it. I don't know if you all remember but I have an ex femme fatale girlfriend in TX that caused some serious pain and serious trouble in my life, very dangerous behaviours. Anyways...my brother in law gave her my home number...again..and last week when I was down sick with the flu she called and was talking to my daughter...my son came and told me. Her and her daughter have carried on before about how they want to take my daughter to Houston, and it does scare me. She has a sick attraction to me...told my daughter she loved me...said her daughter was pregnant....said the fathers name was..coincidentally I don't know but said my husbands name...that bothers me not because I think my hubby cheated..but because when she was 15 she had a crush on my husband and caused some real trouble...Oh man. I am going to have the number changed but am just worried she may try and come up here one day...she used to always to tell me how I was her drug..she couldn't make it without me...but the last year I was around her she and her daughter lived in my home and the tricks she pulled were nothing short of insane. She is with a dope dealer/prison snitch that is always being followed and used by the DEA....just not people you want around ya know? I wish I could help people like that..but I can't...and I just want it to go away. She is a stranger to me now..but obviously she is obsessed with me. Anyways, sorry to go on and on about this. Just needed to get it out, off my chest and out of my head. I know it will all work out, just sometimes you want to forget..and hope the other person will too. Have a great day you all. ASm busy writing and working with my new dog....she is quite the strong willed one! LOL..I think I have finally met my match! Love ya all...........((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))) ) __________________ Many Hugs and Hope too, Tammie "Think of all the beauty still left around you and BE HAPPY." ~Anne Frank~ "Things do not change, WE change." ~Henry David Thoreau~

10-21-2004, 09:12 AM	#8 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	Sorry you have to go through that. Hopefully she doesn't have your address. change the number and pray. New animals - love them! __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

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