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brainwarp · 10-19-2004, 12:29 PM

Hi
popped my antabuse this am. feeling very bad about myself but know i need to suck it up. I did it to myself. How do you get that passion for sobriety back? i remember feeling so excited about getting sober and being a good person. Now i feel like im in the dumps. hopefully now my meds will work.
thanks for all you support
Kim

jenniferaz1980 · 10-19-2004, 02:31 PM

Kim-

You know somtimes relaps is part of recovery. I dont know if you belong to a 12 step fellowship. So I am not going to quote anything from any text.

You are only human. But you still know everything that you have learned un you past recovery attempts. Put it all together. Pick yourself up and start all over.

((((HUGS))))

Paulie · 10-19-2004, 02:53 PM

You are alive...there is hope. Sounds dramatic but it is true.

Today is a new day.

***Anna*** · 10-19-2004, 03:17 PM

Hi Kim,

I think you have to get past the being excited part. That kind of enthusiasm is great, but it can't last forever. At some point the excitement of being sober fades or at least doesn't look quite so appealing and you have to learn how to deal with those times.

You can do this Kim, just take it slow and don't give up.

Love, Anna

namommy · 10-20-2004, 04:50 AM

I'm confused. Did you USE, or finally take the meds you are supposed to take?

I agree with Anna, the excitement doesn't last. All I ever wanted was to be OK. Well, after the excitement wore off and I was just OK, suddenly OK wasn't good enough. Today, I love being OK.

cj. · 10-20-2004, 05:37 AM

Hey Kim:

Don't suck it up, LET IT GO!! Focus on today and what you need to do right now.

Prayers for release for you today,
cj

Galatea · 10-20-2004, 05:46 AM

I know how you feel, Kim. I'm having a hard time with it myself, and when I look back at how happy and excited I was when I first got clean, I feel almost guilty. Maybe Namommy is right, though- maybe we just have to get to the point where being "just ok" is a good thing. Just keep taking it one day at a time, that's all we can do.

10-19-2004, 12:29 PM	#1 (permalink)
brainwarp kimmer Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: california Posts: 42	day one again Hi popped my antabuse this am. feeling very bad about myself but know i need to suck it up. I did it to myself. How do you get that passion for sobriety back? i remember feeling so excited about getting sober and being a good person. Now i feel like im in the dumps. hopefully now my meds will work. thanks for all you support Kim __________________ Kimmer

10-19-2004, 02:53 PM	#3 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,785	You are alive...there is hope. Sounds dramatic but it is true. Today is a new day. __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

10-19-2004, 03:17 PM	#4 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,832	Hi Kim, I think you have to get past the being excited part. That kind of enthusiasm is great, but it can't last forever. At some point the excitement of being sober fades or at least doesn't look quite so appealing and you have to learn how to deal with those times. You can do this Kim, just take it slow and don't give up. Love, Anna __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

10-20-2004, 04:50 AM	#5 (permalink)
namommy Member Join Date: May 2004 Location: Never, Never land Posts: 2,851 Blog Entries: 1	I'm confused. Did you USE, or finally take the meds you are supposed to take? I agree with Anna, the excitement doesn't last. All I ever wanted was to be OK. Well, after the excitement wore off and I was just OK, suddenly OK wasn't good enough. Today, I love being OK. __________________ I came into this program to save my a** and found out it was attached to my soul. -- Anonymous

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10-19-2004, 02:31 PM	#2 (permalink)
jenniferaz1980 New and Unsure Join Date: May 2004 Location: phoenix az Posts: 191	Kim- You know somtimes relaps is part of recovery. I dont know if you belong to a 12 step fellowship. So I am not going to quote anything from any text. You are only human. But you still know everything that you have learned un you past recovery attempts. Put it all together. Pick yourself up and start all over. ((((HUGS))))

10-20-2004, 05:37 AM	#6 (permalink)
cj. Mending Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Atlantic Canada Posts: 300	Hey Kim: Don't suck it up, LET IT GO!! Focus on today and what you need to do right now. Prayers for release for you today, cj

10-20-2004, 05:46 AM	#7 (permalink)
Galatea Member Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Murfreesboro, TN Posts: 3	I know how you feel, Kim. I'm having a hard time with it myself, and when I look back at how happy and excited I was when I first got clean, I feel almost guilty. Maybe Namommy is right, though- maybe we just have to get to the point where being "just ok" is a good thing. Just keep taking it one day at a time, that's all we can do.

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