Feel blah today but no drink

[bliss]

I feel blah today but I haven't and will not have a drink today. I don't want to go through the roller coaster even one more time. It is so not worth it for me. It just makes it worse in the end. I am accepting that this will just be a blah day and get better eventually.I have stayed clean for almost 36 days now. I am not sure what stopped me this time but I am so greatful for my sobriety today. I am happy to be here and write this too. I still feel blah after writing this. I am just going to wait and let it pass. I believe this is my inner self that is trying to get out and maybe never made it past the drunken state and the denial. I an trying to welcome it in whatever form it presents itself to me. Thanks for reading.

[bliss]

I am definetely overeacting but it hurts that no one responded to this thread yet there are responses to other ones. I guess next time I will just write in my diary since that way I don't have to wonder if anyone cares to provide support or not. As you can see my day has not gotten any better.

[Paulie]

Bliss,

Don't take things personally like that.

Sometimes people don't know what to say. Lots of times I don't respond to threads for that reason, and lots of times people don't respond to my threads. Our addiction tells us no one cares. And let me tell you that expectations will take you our using in a heartbeat.

I hope you are doing something for yourself to make your day better, cause only YOU can do that.

[bliss]

Thank Goodness only I can make my day better. I was able to find peace and strength from myself somehow regardless of the lack of support. When I come on here to get support it is understood that I am the only one that can create my reality but like most humans it is nice to get support once in a while. From your posts it appears other people don't have any impact on me like I am all alone?I don't believe that, I just believe I need to find it somewhere else. Maybe in the newcomers board? Atleast they respond there.

[bliss]

I rest my case, I posted something there and already have responses. Sometimes you just need a hug or a kind word. It doesn't take much.Maybe for others it does.

[Paulie]

Bliss -

I am sorry if you took my post to you wrong, you are the one who said you were over-reacting in the first place. All I was trying to say was don't take it personal if your thread is not responded to as quickly as you would like.

I apologize if I offended you. I know sometimes we just need a hug or just need a kind word, I get that. But also sometimes when we expect things and don't get what expect, our perception of things can be wrong also.

[51anna]

Hi Bliss,

I'm sorry to have missed your post, but it was a busy day. The Women's forum is a good place to hang around and there is lots of support to be found here. Listen to what Paulie said, she is absolutely right. I hope you'll post on this forum again.

Love, Anna

[bliss]

Hi ladies,

I guess things can be misinterpreted when you are having a bad day. I still think it is too bad that 69 people read this but two women respond. I guess I shouldn't have any expectations on a message board and appreciate whatever support I do get. I learned a lot from this post. Thanks for being patient with me.

[wastedtime4me]

Hey there {{{{{{{{bliss}}}}}}}}}} i have been off line all afternoon.I am sorry you felt ignored!!! I am proud of you for not takin a drink today!!! I cant speak for the 69 that didnt respond but i can for myself and that is to tell you that i care!!!! I hope you are feeling a bit better!!! Feel free to P.M. me any time you need to vent.I promise to respond as soon as i log on ..ok. I come on frequently throughout the day.I babysit and dont work outside my home right now..Today i had appointments but i am here now if you wanna talk just pm me and i'll let you know how you can reach me on aim messenger..ok ..otherwise i hope your doin ok..sorry you had a rough day!!

[2dayzmuse]

(((Bliss)))

Yes, it would be hard to speculate why people would read, but not respond to your thread, so I won't try. Aw heck, I'll quickly mention that alot of the viewers aren't registered, therefore can't respond. Just a possible explanation. I understand how you feel about the blahs. They do make an appearance now and again. Hang in their, they do pass. I believe they are just apart of dealing with life sober. We are getting reaquainted with our emotions sober. I am anyway. Congratulations on your sober days. One day at a time you can do it. Take care...

LeAnne

[cj.]

Sorry to hear that you had such a rotten day, but I like your attitude of not taking that first drink, no matter what!



cj

[Chy]

Hope your day got better bliss! Forums have personalities like people. Some are more active then others, don't take it to heart, as a large part of the population here can't even post in here. Your not alone that's for sure, it's not live chat and no one expects immediate responses. So keep posting, and do something good for yourself, as nothing changes if nothing changes.

[bubblze30]

Bliss I have not been in here or I would have wrote back. Don't let this get you down I sometimes post and don't get a respond as well. People get busy or jsut plain don't feel like responding never and I mean never let that get you down. I think it is great that you are still sober and I also suggest that you keep a journal as well. Sometimes we need that "Way to go" "good job" however, we don't always get it and when you don't you need to say it to yourself give your self a pat on the back. You deserve it. The longer you stay clean the more you will see you don't need anyones approval or gratification you will know you are doing well and tht is all you need to know.

In your threads or posts maybe you can write support needed please write or any replys would be helpful. Sometimes it's they way we ask for help. What I do see you doing that is good is you are asking for help. This is something that is very difficult for many of us addicts to do.