Frustrated, and just sick.

[KcCrystal]

One of these days I want to get out of my curent liveing sitituation. It's slowly driveing me insane. To be liveing with you grandparents at age 25. When they seem to think everything I say doesn't mean much at all. I feel as if I don't have any say, and if I do say something I get yelled, told I'm worthless. Why can't they at least be civil to me once in awhile? Plus they tend to blame me for every little disagreement between themselves. I was told today it's your fault that we fight, why don't you move out? I said if I had the money I probally would. But I don't have it right now. Anymore I try to stay out of fights, I tend to shut myself in my room & cry.. I've been crying more & more lately, it's like I can't quit, and I don't know why.. Plus today I had to chase down my dogs after my grandpa left the front door open when he went out. I told him to wait so i could get them but he never listens, he just goes. Sorry for the rant. I just had to get it out..

[dragonlady]

KC, I know what you mean! We had to live with my in-laws for a year and I thought I would go insane! All I can say is "This too shall pass" eventually. Keep ranting, believe me, it helps! Lots Of Love!

[lulu70]

Hey KC!! I can totally relate to the whole crying thing. I am right there with you babe. Only, I seem to start crying at the most inappropriate times, have to force myself to stop, and then can't do it again when I really need to and can without embarrasing myself or others.

As far as the grandparents thing goes--I'll tell you what others have told me: "This too shall pass." I would just do everything I could to save money and get the he!! out! You can do it, girl.

And remember, football season starts for real this week. Chiefs play on Sunday!!!! There is sunshine ahead!

Love and hugs--

[boop64132]

Hi Crystal,

Hang in there GF! Put that money back and save save save!!

[KcCrystal]

Price of friendship

Can you put
A price on friendship
How much is it worth
To you
Do you stand by them
In every storm
Or do you let them
Drown in the waves
I can't put a price
on my friendships
They're all worth
There weight in gold
So think about
How much your friends
Mean to you.

[2stop]

(((((((((((((Crystal)))))))))))))

Ditto to what was said above.."This too shall pass" I know it doesn't seem like it, but it will. Focus on YOU, don't own their opinions and ideas. It matters most and ONLY what YOU think about YOU. You can make it girl! We believe in you.

(((((((((((Warmest Hugs)))))))))))

[bubblze30]

Hang in there and vent if you must. I would consider getting an appartment to share. Check the papers I know its hard. Do you have a job? If so, try to look into it and if you don't make enough and you are not going to school I would say get more hours, or a second job. If you want independance and really do want it, you will work hard and make some money to do so. If you don't want to live with anyone work hard and get a studio appartment. It will be yours and yours only and you will feel so proud to finally be on your own. It will not be easy I struggle every month with one thing or another but I woould not give up living on my own and paying my own way for anything (well almost anything, there's always my millionaire dream LOL). One thing and actually it was the first thing I learned that was I had to grow up and teach myself responsibility. Today, I am greatful for my appartment, in the bad part of the city, with noise. I say who cares its mine, I pay for it and no one can take it away, as long as I am responcible. Just thought I would throw a few ideas out there. I know its alot cheaper living with them but if it starts to mess with your mind or your recovery its time to move on. I have been in a living situation that has brought me out to drink again. I no longer allow anyone or anything to have that power. My prayers are with you and I hope things get better for you. Sometimes all we want is a little respect and privacy and we just can't get it. Sad thing is it's there house there rules so it's accept it or work your butt off to get out of there.