not feeling good.

[namommy]

I am having a weird day. Not only do I have my period AGAIN, so I have a headache and cramps. But, I am home alone. I am not used to this anymore. I loved it last year. Being home alone on my day off when the kids were at school and my husband at work. But today, I am not feeling so good. I am bored and lonely. I tried to call my sponsor, but she's not home.

I also can't believe that at 9 o'clock this morning I decided to lay down for just an hour, and slept for 4 hours. I feel like I wasted the day, and now I can't seem to shake it. I know alot of it has to do with my period, and I just keep telling myself that this is the last time I have to deal with it. (my surgery is next Wed.) But today, that just doesn't seem to satisfy my goofy head.

My husband told me that I need to listen to my body and if I am sleeping this much, I must need it. I just get scared because I have been depressed in the past where all I wanted to do is sleep and I don't want to go back there.

I just need to vent.

[Paulie]

I agree with your husband. Listen to your body and give it what it needs. If you were going on week 3 of this, I would be saying something different. But right now give yourself a break, us addicts have a tendency not to do that very well.

Relax today, make today and all about YOU day.

[ButterflyChaser]

awwwwwwwwwwwwww namommy!! If I were there, I'd make sure that we'd go out & do something, or just keep you company, but since I can't do that will this do??
((((((((((((((((((((((namommy))))))))))))))))))) You are in my thoughts!

[namommy]

Thanks Guys,

I didn't give myself a break, I have been running ever since I posted. Just now taking the time to sit down and rest. Oh well, I guess I just needed to rest this morning and then I got my Umpf back.lol

[CarrieSueBee]

namommy -
many of us tend to "run in 5th gear" all the time....constantly doing things, starting things....I used to say it was because after a person has felt that profound drunken or druggie state of mind, all else seems like it is in jittery mode.

Rest up. I agree, if it goes on and on and on, then check in with us about depression. But for now, maybe all you need was a long nap!
Take care,
-CSB

[wastedtime4me]

{{{{{{{{{{namommy}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
good luck on your surgery...tell me if im being too nosey here...are you having a hysterectomy? the reason i askis because i had one a year ago...anything i can do to help..im here...hope you feel better as the days go by...i think your body rested so it could have the strevgth to run all evening..lol..take care

[bubblze30]

Sometimes we get used to the caos of the summer kids all around and all there friends too. It takes sometime to get used to the peace and quiet again but you will. Give yourself a chance. Also as for sleeping four hours maybe thats exactly what your body needed so let it go and be greatful you could sleep that long without interuptions. You will get back into the swing of things and if not you might want to ask a dr. It may be a little depression too. You never know but for now I would just hang onto the thought of it may take kids going back to school and the quietness again a little time to sink in. Hang in there we are all here for you.

[namommy]

Things were put back into perspective for me yesterday. I had to leave work early with a migraine, and believe me I CHERISHED the quiet time I had alone. It is just a shame that it took pain for me to relize that.

WT4M,

I am having an endometrial ablation. They are going to cauterize my uterus. I am looking forward to the end result. Last night my husband said "So, this is just basically going to cauterize your uterus, right?" I said "yeah", he said, "Good, I like fried food" The man is sick.lol

[bubblze30]

just trying to comfort you with sick humor men have a sick way of comforting us but at least he is trying.LOL.

[wastedtime4me]

lol..namommy....he sounds like a funny guy...i will keep you in my prayers..

[Rowan]

Hey Laurie
The part of your post I identified with was the sleeping and depression. Sleeping was my great escape. I slept and slept and slept, and became more and more depressed and isolated. And yes, I too would get up after sleeping for hours and would feel like
I had wasted an entire day AGAIN. I'm glad you got up and got out of the house.
And hey .. good luck on your surgery. I'm sure it will bring you relief.
Love Rowan