starting again

[bubblze30]

Hi all Thank you for being you. Each and every one of you hold a small place in my heart. My daughter starts school tomorrow and I go back to my Womens grouo and my recovery skills group. Its been over a month and I am ready. It is so hot hear in Mass. today I am just drenched with sweat so I must keep this short I am off to my room with A.C. on high. When it gets to hot like this I get nauseous so we don't want that. I just thought I would pop in, say HI and well thank you all for being you. I am doing ok but I can't stay online in here its just to darn hot. So don't worry I am doing good. I have dr.s on Wensday and went to my counceling and shrink today. He upped my serequel so I will let yall know how that works out. See ya tomorrow if it cools down a bit...

[Paulie]

(((Bubblze)))

[wastedtime4me]

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i hope the increase in meds work out good for you....we had that awful heat up until sunday here....hope your daughters first day back at school goes good for her..i hope you enjoy your meetings...i know you have missed them...now get back in that ac ..we dont want you gettin nausiated...

[CarrieSueBee]

{{Bubblze}} good to hear from you...
Sorry you are so hot there....
Speaking of heat...Vegas was 105 today. Jesh. but I still made it to an AA meeting at noon (the hottest time of the day).
Wheneven I feel nauseous, I think.."hmmm... yep, that is what it felt like to wake up after drinking..yep..I still don't like that feeling." :dead:
Let us know how the doc goes for ya, Bubblze.

[ButterflyChaser]

love you girl...u know I do!!

[namommy]

Bubblze,

How was your day?

[bubblze30]

Ok went to docs he ordered more tests I have to wait a week to do thyem he wants them a month a part. Also set me up with a liver specialist for a biopsy and ultrasound. See how that goes I think sept 23. I will keep yall posted. Will be doing sugar tests to. He thinks the discoloration in my feelt may be from my low white blood count. He asked me not to worry yet he will follow it for a while to see if there are any changes. Let ya know when I know. Thanks for asking. Daughter had her anual also she is doing fine.

[bubblze30]

Forgot to tell yall with the help of some really lovely women in here and food stamps I was able to put together like twrnty two meals and maybe a few more if I stretch it. If it were not for all of your help I don't know what I would do. So thank you all so very much for making this all possible for me. You help and generousity will go along way. I want to let everyone know how thankful I am and also to let you know I will do anything in my powers to return the favor somehow someway. Being able to shop without my daughter gave me the ability to take my time concentrate on meal planning and shop smart. I even got snacks and breakfast items to. I haven't felt this good about my shopping at all latley. Feeling I did a really good job planning thanks to all of your well wishes, your prayers and your help I think I am back on track. I made sure its not much but at the end of the month I am hoping to get another nine meals together. Thanks for being there ladies really. You all mean the world to me.

[CarrieSueBee]

Bubblze,
Your strength through this situation is inspiring! Truly, miracles do happen in this program. :shrug: I am not exactly sure how they happen, just that they do!

[Rowan]

You are a miracle Bubblze. We love you, so much!

[wastedtime4me]

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im happy to hear your feelin better and it sounds like you got alot done the past 2 days...i am also very thankfull for this site....there are so many wonderful women here...

[namommy]

((((((((bubblze))))))))

I'm glad to hear things are better. We love you too.

Love ya

Laurie

[bubblze30]

Well I was up at six fifteen this morning wow since school has started I get up early and feel alright with it. My depression has been minimal and I am still kinda eating right besides the ice cream sundae I made last night only one scoop though. I just can't give it all up.LOL. Yes I got all outside stuff done, accept for two bills. I also have done alot around my house. Mopping, sweeping, deoterizing and wiping down even cleaned and sterilized the back hall. The people i live with there kids are just pigs. I am proud of my self. I get up do my daughters hair and make myself coffee and come in here. My groups I think are making me happy again to. I mean I wasn't miserable with my one month vacation but it's just good to be back there I guess. Thanks all.

[Rowan]

You sound wonderful this morning. Doesn't it feel terrific to work hard, and to
accomplish something? Have a terrific day.

[bubblze30]

Well now I am back to depressed again. Its in another thread about my daughter so I don't want to repeat myself but since school got out yesterday I have been in bed and she is punished. The only time I get depressed is when we have a blow out. God give me strength...

[bubblze30]

Wow The weather has changed so much yesterday morning it was cool then hot in the afternoon. In the evening however it got windy and the temp dropped from eighty to about fifty. So strange now today it is so cool outside. I am enjoying it though.

I was up early this morning fixed me some joe and came in here to post. I think I am finally learning how to pull myself out of my depression. I just hope I continue to learn more each day to help better myself.

Last night well this morning I mean I awoke at about four thirty in the morning to a woman and a man arguing. She was asking him why he spent all her money on crack and crying and he was hitting her and she was crying. He also had a gun to her head threating to kill her. I called the police and he got arrested but before that ran in back of the housse to ditch the gun I am thinking not sure if they recoverd it or not. It brought back so many memories of myself getting beat up by my man who was high on coke or drunk. Oh the memories all came flowing back. It took a while before I got back to sleep. I felt so sorry for the girl just laying in the street this guy pulling her hair and hitting her in the head with the gun. Man why? This damn addiction is so darn sickening although I have seen men hit women while not on drugs(learning from there fathers or mothers boyfriends) but drugs really do mess with the head. She was taken to the hospitol and him to jail. However I am sure in the future it will happen agian. That was twice the cops were there yesterday because of guns. Someone will get shot soon. I made my daughter come in telling her when ever she sees men crowding around to come in immediatly or she will not be able to go out any more. Luckily she listend. So Far. These things help me to remember why I no longer use and am greatful I don't. My daughter witnessed it to and I made sure I told her he was on drugs., She felt bad for the girl. I feel bad my daughter has to be around such violence but I pray it teaches her first hand not to let a boy hit her, or to use drugs herself...