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katrice · 07-11-2004, 01:03 AM

I'm just starting out in recovery 13 days and counting. So many changes are happening to me mentaly and emotionaly I don't know how to handel them. One minute I'm crying and the next I'm happy. One thing I know for sure is all these changes are scaring the sh_ _ out of me. My sponser tells me "buckel up recovery is a bummpy ride", but I never imagined it being this bad. I have to admitt however...that it's exciting to FEEL again.

I was driving the other day and it just amazed me how diffrent things looked and smelled. It was almost as if blinds and a nose plug had been lifted and I was sensing my surroundings for the first time. Sounds crazy I know, but it's true! I feel like I've been asleep for 20yrs. and I'm NOW waking up to the beauty of LIFE!

Please keep me in your prayers and I will keep you in mine.

Free At Last,
Katrice

bubblze30 · 07-11-2004, 08:40 AM

Hi Katrice and Welcome to S.R. Yes I remember all to well those flooding feelings. Crying and crying. The thing you must tell yourself over and over is this to shall pass. I thought I was going crazy but as you said your body can feel smell and see a little clearer. You will be ok. If you want to cry cry. If you want to sleep sleep. Just remember you are new to this recovery thing and your body must adjust to not having a substance in it. It tok me six months on and off to adjust. It wasn't all bad and it wasn't all good but it wass all worth it. I have three years and I am greatful to have gone through it all. When I have an urge which is not often I remeber all I went through to get to where I am today. So buckle up and enjoy the bumpy road. It won't always be bumpy. Just remember you won't die from detoxing.LOL. Just might feel that way.

Chy · 07-11-2004, 09:35 AM

Hi katrice and welcome!

What your experiancing is normal. But the good thing is it does get better as you've already begun to see!

We're glad your here.

KelKel · 07-11-2004, 10:11 AM

Hi Katrice...

Welcome to SR...
You will find a lot of support and understanding here.

Iceberg · 07-11-2004, 10:30 AM

Hi Katrice,

These ladies are right on, it will get better, you'll see. Your brain is healing and it has no real defenses other than faith, logic and knowledge. I am at 30 days today and I remember the first week was really weird. I had strong urges to drink, nightmares and was crying a lot too but it passed.

According to my program, I am now in end of the "honeymoon" stage and will begin to "hit the wall." Because even though I stopped drinking all my problems are still here! Now I need to take care of a lot of crap to ease my mind and have a sense of order and peace.

I am told the wall phase too will pass as long as I stay committed to seeking answers to WHY I drank. For me it's not good enough right now for me to just not be drinking.

XO Iceberg

Alice Wonder · 07-11-2004, 11:16 AM

Hi and welcome Katrice! stick around... there are wonderful people here and a lot of support and love. love-alice

Paulie · 07-11-2004, 02:10 PM

Hi and welcome from me too. Glad you found us and I look forward to getting to know you better.

07-11-2004, 01:03 AM	#1 (permalink)
katrice Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: kennewick washington Posts: 2	Would like to chat... I'm just starting out in recovery 13 days and counting. So many changes are happening to me mentaly and emotionaly I don't know how to handel them. One minute I'm crying and the next I'm happy. One thing I know for sure is all these changes are scaring the sh_ _ out of me. My sponser tells me "buckel up recovery is a bummpy ride", but I never imagined it being this bad. I have to admitt however...that it's exciting to FEEL again. I was driving the other day and it just amazed me how diffrent things looked and smelled. It was almost as if blinds and a nose plug had been lifted and I was sensing my surroundings for the first time. Sounds crazy I know, but it's true! I feel like I've been asleep for 20yrs. and I'm NOW waking up to the beauty of LIFE! Please keep me in your prayers and I will keep you in mine. Free At Last, Katrice

07-11-2004, 08:40 AM	#2 (permalink)
bubblze30 Member Join Date: Apr 2003 Location: mass Posts: 1,360	Hi Katrice and Welcome to S.R. Yes I remember all to well those flooding feelings. Crying and crying. The thing you must tell yourself over and over is this to shall pass. I thought I was going crazy but as you said your body can feel smell and see a little clearer. You will be ok. If you want to cry cry. If you want to sleep sleep. Just remember you are new to this recovery thing and your body must adjust to not having a substance in it. It tok me six months on and off to adjust. It wasn't all bad and it wasn't all good but it wass all worth it. I have three years and I am greatful to have gone through it all. When I have an urge which is not often I remeber all I went through to get to where I am today. So buckle up and enjoy the bumpy road. It won't always be bumpy. Just remember you won't die from detoxing.LOL. Just might feel that way. __________________ "What don't kill us. Will make us stronger"

07-11-2004, 02:10 PM	#7 (permalink)
Paulie It is what it is!!! Join Date: Feb 2002 Location: Sobriety Posts: 5,518	Hi and welcome from me too. Glad you found us and I look forward to getting to know you better. __________________ I know more about how to live than I did yesterday, but not as much as I'll know tomorrow. Today, Ill learn something new~JFT, 1/27/06 The difference between a good day and a bad day, is about 2 days~Ann of SR

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07-11-2004, 09:35 AM	#3 (permalink)
Chy Member Join Date: May 2003 Location: El Paso, Tx Posts: 5,886	Hi katrice and welcome! What your experiancing is normal. But the good thing is it does get better as you've already begun to see! We're glad your here.

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KelKel Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: The Mohave Desert Posts: 2,313	Hi Katrice... Welcome to SR... You will find a lot of support and understanding here.

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Iceberg Iceberg Join Date: Jun 2004 Location: Los Angeles, CA Posts: 65	Hi Katrice, These ladies are right on, it will get better, you'll see. Your brain is healing and it has no real defenses other than faith, logic and knowledge. I am at 30 days today and I remember the first week was really weird. I had strong urges to drink, nightmares and was crying a lot too but it passed. According to my program, I am now in end of the "honeymoon" stage and will begin to "hit the wall." Because even though I stopped drinking all my problems are still here! Now I need to take care of a lot of crap to ease my mind and have a sense of order and peace. I am told the wall phase too will pass as long as I stay committed to seeking answers to WHY I drank. For me it's not good enough right now for me to just not be drinking. XO Iceberg

07-11-2004, 11:16 AM	#6 (permalink)
Alice Wonder Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Los Angeles, Ca. Posts: 353	Hi and welcome Katrice! stick around... there are wonderful people here and a lot of support and love. love-alice

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