I hate my dad ...

[dotcom]

that *&$%@#$ i hope he gets trapped in a well or something. what an ass ... i cannot wait until i move out away from him ... hopefully before i beat the crap out of him. im trying to control my anger by posting so maybe that will spare him although he deserves to get pushed off a cliff or smashed in a door or something like that. ... he treats my mom like crap and he has no respect and acts like he is four years old and only pays attention to me when he "feels like it" that f*****. i have no respect for him and should have known i would be this mad at him again. hate is a strong word, and yes i hate him. how can you love someone who repeatedly does s*** like this? instead of "i love you" i will tell him "i hate you" ... love is something you work hard to maintain ... that piece of ****, im not going out on a limb to have my feelings shot down every time i try to be nice. so **** him.

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(((((((((((((((huggys Dot))))))))))), whew I could feel the heat all the way to NY!!! Vent away here!!! It does my heart good to have someone swear more than me today!

[dotcom]

(((((zoomy))))) i gave myself a little time to cool off. took a shower, then went to my room put some metal on and fell asleep. i still feel the same feelings only i feel relaxed and less aggressive. heeheehee ... i have a bad potty mouth! bad dot!

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There is a good saying Dot "it's better to be pissed off than pissed on" (((((((((huggys sister potty mouth))))))))))

[dotcom]

haha, i like that ... i have decided to avoid him as much as possible which means staying in my room while he is home (which isnt much, but im sure he finds pleasure in the fact that i dont like him here so he spends more time home) ... my mom wants me to change my mind and "make up" but there is no making up with him ... things will never change ... :Flush:

[Little Missy]

Awe (((Dot))) I'm feeling ya on this one. My Dad too is a peice of $hit!! When ever I try to reach out to him, I just get kicked in the face! He told me when my son was born, that he wasn't a good Dad, but he would be a good Grandad. He can't even do that. He even went golfing instead of attending my daughters baptism. Somethings never change no matter how much we wish they would. "That's just the way he is" that's what I always say.

Well I bet that didn't help you much. But I know where you are coming from, even if I don't know your problems with your Dad.

I think typing here is the only time I cut don't on my cussing. I use the f word as a noun, verb, adjective. It seems to get my f***ing point across!!

Love ya,
Missy

[JT]

Dot...tell your mom to stay out of it. Your relationship with your dad is just that...yours. She will be a lot healthier when she gets rid of the black and white striped shirt and whistle....I know I was!

((Hugs))
JT

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Good Morning Dot. that's no way to live! My son when he was here was very pissed off at me or just pissed off in general. Even though I did not comprehend the why of his anger, I tired to keep the peace. LOL, you Dad sounds like my husband. My husband would do things just to **** my son off. I think it's a male thing. I thought it was very childish. Now Dot, it's you home, do not force yourself to live in your bed room. That is giving more power to the situation. Learning to ignor the actions of another is a big step in living your own life. Go about your life and the person will find someone eles to do battle with if they see that they can't get to you any more. My husband trys to pull his same stunts on me (passive aggression at it's best) I can tell when he is pissed about something,but he never talks about what he is pissd off about,so how am I to guess? I let it go for a little while, then I ask "what's is your problem" Either he has to talk about his problem or he gets deflated. I'v also learned that he is going to have his moods and he is who he is. I can't change him and I certainly can't move out,so I deal with it the best I can. (((huggys))))

[bubblze30]

Hang in there girl. I suggest you just do as you are stay away from him as much as possible. You don't need that negativity in your life at this point you are doing well in school and recovery. Don't let him rent any space in your head you need all that room for school LMAO. The more you stay away the better I am sure you will feel. Unless he likes to but heads he will search you out for argument. Hope not. Hang in dot.