My first PMS post

[liveweyerd]

I usually, rarely anymore get PMS. I always get migraines. But I woke up today full blown PMS. I don't feel horrible. It is in my attitude and my thinking. Here is what my head sounds like:

I have had enough of this.
I have had enough of that.
And guess what I have changed my mind about some things.
For those couple who are counting on me, you are not giving me enough to make it worth my while.
Maybe I won't keep the apt here when I am laid off. It benefits others more than me. My reasons for intending to do that, keep it, are about whittled away.
Maybe I will just gypsy on down the road and pick up short motel-room contracts.
I have no problems moving around, meeting people or dating.
Right now there are not enough benefits to me to commit myself to staying with the current set-up after I get laid off.
I should pay a months rent so bf can spend 4 days a month with me?
HELLO!!!!!!
I can talk on the phone from anywhere.!


I am not kidding folks!

[JT]

I hear ya Live!! "Mama said there'd be days like this...."

(((Hugs)))
JT

[bubblze30]

You have been getting hit with so many curve balls. It seems to be a tough time for you. The worst I hope will be over soon. Worry about yourself and what you need. Thats whats important. I am sure you will make the right choices. My prayers are with you.

[zoomer]

((((((((live)))),PMS makes me crazy... I always check the calender to know when it's me or PMS talking! If it's the time of the month, I know there is only a few days left and all will be well soon!

[Paulie]

Isn't it interesting that we get to a certain point in life when we know it is PMS? when I was younger I had no clue, today I know when it is PMS for sure.

(((Live))) you know it will pass.

[Chy]

I stay away from people, places and things now. I just know better. The older I get the worse it get's... *sigh* Hang in there live!

[liveweyerd]

Well, bubblze, that is what I did, I thought of myself and my needs.
Today was my weekly day w/bf.
And I didn't do any dramas, scenes or accusations. But I did make some "I" statements. About how things (personal physical time) were dwindling and were headed towards a friendship. That it is a problem for me and I am sad about it.
I don't care what day of the month this is...that is real.
He asked if I wanted to talk about it now or later in the week and I said I thought it was fair to give him time to think about it first. He wants us to work it out. That's great....but I know me and I am telling you now that if we don't feel sexy together, I will wander on down the road. And not behind his back, even in fantasy. It will be an honest handshake.
I told him I was going to bed early and he would be bored, so better for him to go home where he can do the things he likes to do where he is comfortable.

Just got a GOOD phone call. I was scheduled for a massage Wed, she called and had a cancellation, so tomorrow morning I get a wonderful massage.
But then, a paid massage is GOOD, but from your man it is GREAT.

I am 45 years old. Single for over 10 years, so I think I am a veteran.
Women are so relationship oriented that we often stay even though things are not working for us. It is getting easier and easier for me to realize that staying doesn't make things work. I'd rather be alone with hope, than commited (confined) in a go nowhere situation.

This is the first time I have ever mentioned that I feel that things are not going to work out.
Ball is in his court.

[Paulie]

Originally Posted by liveweyerd

It is getting easier and easier for me to realize that staying doesn't make things work. I'd rather be alone with hope, than commited (confined) in a go nowhere situation.

That is huge Live!!!

[In memory of miracle]

PMS - Puttinup with Mens S h-t....*lol* Hang in there !

[myles1]

Hey Live,

I got to that point too..................much better to be alone than stuck in a situation that isn't going to work out. It's a good place to get to.


Ngaire